Post by Deleted on Feb 29, 2016 23:50:23 GMT -6
NOTE: IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN FOLLOWING THE RECENT STORY ARC BETWEEN ROBINSON AND WINTER AS WELL AS NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO RECENT TWITTER ACTIVITY BETWEEN ROBINSON, WINTER, STACY AND ZELDA. IT'S RECOMMENDED YOU DO SO THEREFORE THIS WILL ACTUALLY MAKE SENSE. THANK YOU.
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I bet you’re all wondering what the fuck am I thinking? And if I was going to be brutally honest with you, I don’t even know what I’m doing myself. If anything, I’m not doing this for Veronica herself...I’m doing this for Zelda.
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I bet you’re all wondering what the fuck am I thinking? And if I was going to be brutally honest with you, I don’t even know what I’m doing myself. If anything, I’m not doing this for Veronica herself...I’m doing this for Zelda.
Speaking of Zelda, I figured I’d leave her behind and come on my own. I have no fucking idea how this is going to go and if it goes badly, the last thing I want is for Zelda to be in harm’s way, especially with her little one still inside of her.
Of course, that also means that if this does go badly, I’m on my own and the last time I had a confrontation with Veronica, she gave me a severe concussion and broke my damn nose.
Let’s hope I can avoid anymore damage...
I pull up outside of the Syracuse Hotel here in Syracuse, New York in my plum coloured Dodge Charger. Turning off the engine, I open the door and exit my vehicle.
Dressed in a pair of black high heeled leather boots, a pair of skin tight black leather trousers, a black Five Finger Death Punch T-shirt and a black leather jacket, I begin to make my way into the hotel, hitting the lock button on my car keys as I enter.
Walking up to the reception desk, the man sitting behind the desk looks up as I approach and greets me with a pleasant smile.
“Madame...how may I help you?”
“Yes, I’m looking for a Miss Veronica Pinelli?”
He taps away on his keyboard and after a few moments, he shakes his head before looking back at me.
“I’m sorry but there is nobody checked in here under that name...”
“She may be under her other alias...Miss Winter Pine?”
Checking the system again, this time, the look he gives is slightly more positive.
“Yes, we do have a Miss Winter Pine staying with us, are you a relative or something?”
“A work colleague...I’ve come for a quick visit...”
“Well, I can tell you she’s in room 146, just through the double doors on your right and just go straight ahead and you can’t miss it...”
“Thanks...”
He nods before I head towards the double doors and push my way through them and head down the corridor. After a few moments, I finally reach the room that I need to be at.
“I hope you know what you’re doing, Stace...”
Taking a deep breath, I knock on the door three times and stand their waiting patiently. Who knows what’s going to happen the moment she sees me when she opens her door.
The door slowly opens up and standing right in front of me is something I never thought I'd see. A woman who has tormented me for weeks, has injured me and destroyed me mentally...I look at her and she looks fucking miserable. Her face is covered in severely smeared mascara mixed with drenching tears and her hair in a huge mess, her normal very well kept wardrobe replaced with a button up flannel shirt that looks eerily familiar to something I bought Matt back when we were together, and from what I can tell besides probably a pair of underwear that is all she is wearing. I can also see her knuckles marked in scars and blood, they actually look sickening.
"Y-you?!?"
She gazes at me in pure anger as she continues.
"What in the ever loving fuck are you doing here, you worthless harlot?!?"
“Veronica...I’m not here for a fight...I’m just here to talk, so can I come in? And shall we keep the petty name calling to a minimum if possible?”
Continuing to stare at me for a few moments, she then turns around without closing the door and walks back inside her room.
"Enter if you must..."
Entering the room, I close the door behind me and make my way into the lounge area as Veronica drops down onto the sofa as I take a seat on a chair adjacent. Looking to the floor, I don’t really know how to begin this conversation. Here I am in the room of one of my biggest rivals, and I’m about to to try and help her with whatever she’s going through right now.
“So...uhh...”
"Just why are you here? You are honestly fucking lucky I don't finish the job I started at Double Jeopardy, I mean you still look like a fucking mess with how swelled your nose is."
The smirk Veronica has with that small little jab quickly disappears into a neutral look. Then out of nowhere, I jump a bit seeing this woman rear around and slam her fist right into the wall, screaming out slightly and tearing up a bit more as I see her pull it back and reveal the torn up flesh on her knuckles looking worse than how I first saw them with fresh blood now showing up on them.
“Hang on...”
Standing back up, I head over into the kitchen area and grab a cloth, running it under the cold tap for a moment and then come back over and pass it to her as she reluctantly takes it from me and wraps it around her fist before I re-take my seat.
“Listen Veronica, I’m not here for you...okay...and I know that the moment I leave this room, everything is going to go back to normal between us. But right now, I’m here because believe it or not, Zelda still cares about you and she doesn’t want you to do anything stupid...”
I know that this conversation is probably going to be like me talking to a brick wall, but I got to at least try, I promised Zelda I would.
“When she saw the tweets from you, she got worried and quite frankly, the way Matt’s been acting lately has gotten me worried as well. We both still care for the two of you respectively and as much as we may strongly disagree with the kind of people you are now, we both have pasts with you both where we were once both madly in love with you and that feeling never completely disappears...”
Taking my electronic cigarette from my pocket, I take a few puffs from it before continuing.
“I don’t know what happened between you two, I think I have an idea but at the end of the day...that business is between you and Matt. But whatever it is that you did, I know that eventually, he’s going to forgive you. I should know, I was married to him for five years...and I see the way he looks at you, I can see it in his eyes that he is madly in love with you and I know deep down inside, he doesn’t want to let you go...”
I take another couple of puffs of my e-cig, I let out a small sigh as I look over at my rival, not sure if she’s actually even listening to what I have to say.
“I know you probably aren’t even listening to what I’m saying, and as I previously mentioned, I’m not expecting this conversation to change our lives and change the way we see one another. I’m expecting you to go back to trying to make my life completely miserable whilst I try and fight through it and take you down...but as much as Zelda and I despise you and Matt for what you’ve done to us and what you’ve put us through, we still don’t want to see either of you in this state...”
Standing to my feet, I’m not expecting to stay much longer, I’ve said my piece and whether she takes it in or not is up to her.
“Go see him and talk too him...eventually when he’s had the time to think, he’ll let you in so you can solve this mess...together.”
Suddenly Veronica lunges her arm forward and grabs on tightly to my wrist, her gaze straight at the ground as she pulls me roughly onto the sofa next to her. She looks slightly up to my arm, holding it out and pulling up the sleeves of my jacket.
"What does it feel like...taking that kind of release...being on the verge of death...forcing metal against the soft skin of your arm?"
She begins to rub her other hand across my arm, over some places where old scars still show slightly on my body. I feel her fresh tears fall against them, and can hear her sounding like something between laughing and sorrowful groaning.
“Well, I’ve been completely honest with you about everything so far...so I’m going to continue with that. It’s...it’s pretty much like a drug...whether it be getting drunk on alcohol to numb your pain...doing coke or whatever to numb the pain. It feels good, I mean yeah...there’s the initial pain of cutting yourself, but eventually the pain washes away...as the blood oozes out of your body...”
This is all making me feel rather uncomfortable, but I need to make sure that she doesn’t do anything she’ll end up regretting.
“But as much as it may feel good for you to begin with...like any horrible addiction...it gets worse and worse and it ends up hurting the people around you who care deeply for you. I remember what Matt was like when he opened up to me about Heather, his first wife who committed suicide...he nearly took his own life too because of it, but in the end...he didn’t...”
"He's...never told me about that."
She shoots her head back up towards me, taking her hands off my arms and using them to wipe a bit at her face which only further smears the mascara-infused tears on her face and now covers her hands. She then places her hands right onto my face, I hold in my disgust as a feel the sticky mess on her hands cover my cheeks.
"I...actually am more human than I let people see me as...I have so many feelings. Stacy...I want to die for the pain I gave Matthew. I want to rid the Earth of my presence. I...deep down...I l...I lo...I L-O-V-E Matthew and I can't even say it now because I betrayed him, and what hurts is it took me making a stupid mistake for me to realize that. I can't think straight...I can't enjoy pain...even as much as I want to hurt you..."
I feel her shaking as her face begins to show so much fear.
"...Stacy, everything I think about you is true. I think you are the most pathetic woman on this roster and a disease ridden harlot who I wish would just go away...but Winter business stays out in the ring. Right now...Veronica just needs someone to tell her why life is worth living, because without Matthew I feel like the most miserable woman alive. Without Nick and Chelsea..."
This finally causes Veronica to crack as she breaks down crying roughly and collapses onto me
"I want my puppies! I want the two souls who can bring joy to any mother's heart!"
Hearing her say their names fills me with so much pain, I miss my babies and...as much as it pains me to think this, I can see how much Veronica misses them too, and she hasn’t known them their entire lives like I have.
“Life is worth living...because part of growing up is learning from your mistakes. No matter how old we get, we are always growing and always learning. Life is worth living because if there is ANY chance that the person you love...will forgive you for your mistakes, then you have to fight as hard as you possibly can to get that person back!”
I can’t believe the next words that are going to come out of my mouth, but...they’re true.
“When I snapped at you on Twitter earlier...when you brought up my kids...it was...it was a mistake, and I shouldn’t have done it. I feel the same pain you are feeling right now...not being able to see them and...again...I’m going to be honest here, I was jealous that you were spending time with them...and I wasn’t able too...”
A single tear begins to roll down my cheek.
“But...I can see how much you care about them...and I’m truly thankful for that because...if...if I never ever get to see them again...at least I know they will be safe. As much as that pains me to say that...it’s true, Veronica.”
Wiping away my tears, I let out another sigh.
“Like I said before, go and talk to him...when he’s ready to talk, he’ll listen...and he’s a very forgiving man. You made a mistake, we all...make mistakes...but if you don’t at least try and rectify those mistakes, then what’s the point? I learned that the hard way when I tried to take my own life...don’t go down that same path, Veronica. Matt still loves you, Nick and Chelsea adore you...even Zelda and no doubt Ty still care a little...”
Veronica lifts her head back up slowly, I look down for a moment to see my shirt now covered in the same tears and mascara mix that also are on my face from where her hands were. I really liked this shirt too...but it is worth it I guess.
"You...actually are thankful for something I've done? That's...really thoughtful. Thank you for this kindness...look, outside this room, I'm going to go back to making sure you go away. I honestly am disgusted by you even now, but...your heart is something I do admire about you believe it or not."
Reaching over to a small tattered notebook laying on a table next to the sofa, she pulls out a piece of paper on it with a roughly drawn picture of me on it. This is a bit confusing honestly, but I look a bit on the picture and see the cute little signature of Nick in the bottom left corner, causing me to tear up a bit more as Veronica lays it in my hand.
"I want you to have this...I've been teaching Nick how to draw people and he chose you as the first person he wanted to draw. It's a better first attempt than I thought he was capable of, but he loves drawing pictures so much. Consider this the best I can really say thank you, I may want to be the only mother in their life but their young hearts can't forget you, and I came to accept that about them. For choosing to put aside differences for just a few moments, letting me feel like someone is listening, this is my showing of appreciation to you."
A small genuine smile crosses my face as I continue to stare at the picture, it is a pretty damn good drawing for a five year old.
“Thank you, Veronica...this means a lot...”
With that, I stand to my feet whilst folding the picture up and placing it into my pocket.
“Remember, talk to him...he’ll forgive you...it may not be right away, but trust me when I tell you...that you haven’t lost him forever. But if you don’t at least try...you will end up losing him forever...”
"I will...I apologize, I have to go back to business once you leave this room, but I want you to know I'll never forget this. And Stacy...tell Zelda I am sorry for going off on her...and tell her I see a lot of great things for that baby girl."
She slightly smiles back at me before turning away and looking into her notebook.
"Now please leave before you overstay your welcome, I mean unless you wish to allow me to extend your time on the shelf."
“I’ll let myself out...”
With that, I make my way towards the front door of her room and quickly exit, closing the door behind me. I lean against it for a brief moment, looking up to the ceiling and letting out an elongated sigh.
Did that...really just happen?
I push myself off of the door and begin to make my way out of the hotel and back to my car. Unlocking it, I open the driver door and climb into it and immediately take my phone out from the glove compartment and go into the contacts, once I reach Zelda’s number, I hit the call button and place it to my ear.
Again, did that really just fucking happen?
Suddenly, my train of thought is disturbed as I hear the sound of the call being answered on the other end.
"Heya beautiful. So...um...Winter?"
“Yeah...I...uh...okay so...yeah...”
"Guessing it didn't go over so well? I mean I'm not surprised, it was probably no different than talking to a bri-"
“Oh no, it went...it probably went as...well as it could have possibly gone, actually...”
"Wait, seriously? Did she actually listen to you?!?"
“Not only did she listen to me, but she thanked me and also asked me to tell you that she’s sorry for going off at you and that she believes your baby girl is destined for great things...”
"You're...this isn't a joke is it?"
“Zel...do you honestly think I would make up nice things about that woman? But in all fairness, I would probably be thinking the same thing. But no, it’s not a joke...she actually said those things...”
A bit of dead air fills the call before I hear the slight sound of Zelda crying on the other end.
"That's...great. Huh...that's the first time I've heard kind phrases about me come from Winter since back when we were in school...how sweet."
She musters out a few soft laughs but it's clear she is using them to hide what else she is doing that I already caught her on.
“Zel, I heard you crying...you know you don’t need to hide that kind of thing from me. Maybe it was because of how vulnerable she was with what happened, but I told her straight that the reason why I was there was because of you...”
"I just...don't feel right feeling so happy and emotional hearing kindness from her...she is supposed to be someone I hate immensely because of what she's done to you and me. But...she actually wishes good things on my baby? She actually said that?"
“Zel, feeling that way is understandable, maybe she felt the same way when I told her that it was because of you that I was there, after what happened when you were together and how much she hated you for it, was probably just as big of a shock to her as this is to you. And yeah Zel, she said that about your little girl...I know it’s crazy to think, but it’s the truth...I wouldn’t lie to you about something like this...”
"Well...I'm happy she wishes so well. But just, quick change of subject, you did actually get through to her? I know earlier today with the whole thing she was saying about Nick and Chelsea and how much that got to you, I figure it was gonna already make things a bit uneasy between you two."
“Well...about that...I actually apologized for going off on her about that. I was wrong to do that, and well...honestly...I can tell she really cares about the kids. And honestly, if I never ever get to see them again...I’m glad they’ll have a motherly figure there who loves them and will protect them against anything...”
"Wait you...OK I'm really, really confused right now cuz I'm pretty sure this is a conversation with Winter we are talking about."
“It’s true, Zel...I saw how she was with my own two eyes...she practically thinks of them as her own, which explains why she refers to them as her pups. Obviously it still kills me inside that she gets to see them and I don’t...but...at least I know they’re safe...”
"This is all so bizarre to take in...she must have really looked broken for this to be the kind of conversation you had with this woman. But I am happy you got through to her, and at least you are able to tell Nick and Chelsea were actually safe with her, I know that was eating you up inside for a long time. Winter may be one of the most sadistic bitches I've ever met...but Veronica is a kind woman with a weak heart. I just never thought I would personally hear from that side of Winter again."
“Yeah...it’s just a shame it had to take something so heartbreaking for her to actually show that Veronica still exists somewhere deep inside...however how small it may be. I mean of course, you do realize that this doesn’t change anything...we still hate each other, she’s still going to try and break me and ruin my life whilst I continue fighting to make sure that doesn’t happen...”
Zelda sighs from the other side of the phone, I can sense the disappointment in her voice as she continues to talk.
"I can't say I'm surprised. But...at least she isn't dead, I just don't think I could have slept knowing her to be gone, no matter how much I despise her. You did a very admirable thing Stacy, that's why I love you so much, you being able to put aside all this to help even her shows how strong of a heart you have. I'm proud of you and appreciate this a lot."
“Anything for my bestie...and hey...thank you for asking me to go in the first place. I think talking with Veronica may have helped me take another huge step forward with getting my life back on track for the better...”
"Hey, no need to thank me. I just want things around here to get better, call me selfish but I want things as calm as possible for my baby girl and with only one month left to make sure that be that case I'm doing whatever I can. I want her surrounded by happy people, that includes her amazing godmother, Stacy."
“And they will be Zel...anyway...I better get going before I get a ticket for being parked outside here for so long...I’ll catch you later, okay hon...”
"Okay Stacy bear, please drive safe back home. Love you bunches bestie, thank you again for this."
“Love you too, and again...no problem...bye...”
And with that, I end the call and place my phone back into the glove compartment before starting the engine and starting to make my way back home.
So yeah. I guess that actually did just happen. I’m honestly still in shock about the whole thing. I was expecting to be leaving her hotel room on a stretcher or worse. But nope, I guess even the most evil and sadistic people in the world have a heart after all.
Of course, this doesn’t change a damn thing. She still nearly took out my best friend and I’m not going to put it past her to try and do something similar to Katie when they step into the ring against one another at Breakthrough.
I may have managed to get through to Veronica there...but there’s certainly no way of getting through to Winter.