Post by Jamilyn Cornett on Jul 30, 2016 19:09:21 GMT -6
OOC NOTE: While this RP is meant to count for Breakthrough #49, NONE OF IT is on camera. I'm trying something a bit different due to time constraints. Depending on reaction, I might attempt this more often, but for now at least, I hope you guys enjoy!
[From Jamilyn’s personal diary, July 30th, 2016, 6:00PM Pacific Daylight Time]
{Mood Music: “Renegades” by X Ambassadors}
The last couple weeks…where do I even start…
The post-Breakthrough conversation I had with Kat regarding her management of emotions?
The connection I formed with Maddie in the middle of all this?
The dinner at Zoey’s parents’ place with Kate?
Meeting Nick and Chelsea and seeing Nick respond to me more than he apparently had any other girl? (See, the guys think I’m ugly! LMAO)
The latest therapy appointment where even Dr. Layton was starting to question whether I needed these sessions in the first place?
The confrontation I had to have with Penny’s parents after they made Nikki cry and tried to abduct Penny back to Nashville?
The conversation I had with Klavdiya about Kate’s past and the subsequent conversation with her parents today that gave Kate at least some closure?
No.
None of that matters right now.
Because now my words are getting twisted against me.
I was apparently ignored because I’m ‘pathetic’ and ‘playing mind games.’
She’s calling my fiancé a bimbo.
She thinks it’s coincidental that I wanted to broaden my understanding at the time of our match.
She’s trying to compare racism to my distrust of the male gender. (Someone needs to call Crystal Hilton, by the way, on likeness rights…those two are looking WAY too similar to take Rebecca similarly, and…yeah, let’s not get into that whole Crystal mess right now.)
She thinks I LIKE the fact that my sexuality is being used to define me in VoW instead of my past accolades in the ring.
She thinks I’m pretending this is a game.
And wrestling goddess? Please. I’ve seen people like Kayla Winters who had more talent than her and never got the respect they deserved.
He assumes that I should hide away who I am because it could corrupt his daughter.
A girl who should seriously be more controlled on her social media than she is. Seriously, my dad wouldn’t even let my sister get a Twitter until she graduated high school, and as for Gene….
Okay, bad topic, Jami, refocus.
He doesn’t WANT Mimi thinking for herself; he wants her under his control.
He’s now backtracking saying he DIDN’T throw the match for Katie when he’s made public statements to the contrary.
He’s trying to blame ME for Katie’s downfall.
He’s trying to make it sound like I’M a cancer to VoW.
….he brought Dad into this.
And that’s when it hit me.
They’re doing exactly what Dad would do.
They’re trying to throw us off our game long enough to get the win.
That’s not going to happen.
Rebecca had her chance to prove me wrong by openly talking to me and making her position known. Instead, she hid like a coward and felt it necessary to throw shade under the bus.
Tyron assumed he had me convinced he was different, yet continued to make the same tired stereotypical assumptions every other male has about me.
YOU WOULD THINK after beating the fuck out of Katalina, pinning Maddie, and winning the match, Casa De Kami would be taken more seriously.
The problem is, we’re not.
And it damn sure ain’t because of Kate and I.
No….maybe Chelsey had a point…before she decided bailing on Dad in the middle of her own personal drama was a smart idea. Maybe Alex, Nikki, and Penny are the problem.
But wait…
It’s not their fault they get excited about what goes on in the house.
It’s not their fault everyone else in their lives save for a select few have shit on them.
Granted, they get a little too public about it, but Kate and I are public figures…what we do is going to get scrutinized just for us being us.
So just like Tyron and Rebecca are trying to make this about their daughter, I have to focus on this match to make it known that my girls are just as important.
They can try to blame us all they want that an underage girl could be corrupted into *gasp* original thought by experiencing things outside their little bubble, but at the end of the day…they’re being irresponsible parents by not putting a cap on what their kid can and can’t do.
And as for their addressing my sexism…
I never denied I wasn’t.
You have a guy fuck you at four years old, do it for a year before your biological father can get you out of that hellhole, then twelve years later the same guy knocks you up AND kills the baby, along with any dreams you might have had about being a parent from that point forward, not to mention the rest of what that dick’s done to my family over the course of twenty years…
Well, if that doesn’t color someone’s perspective about the male race, then they weren’t normal to begin with.
I’ve been trying to improve on that, that’s part of what my therapy session this last Monday was about. I was at least trying to be respectful to those two, but they had to go and fuck it up.
And then there’s the hypocrisy that they’re trying to blame me for Katie’s downfall when, if you REALLY start to think about it, I TRIED TO PREVENT THAT SHIT FROM HAPPENING!!!
It’s almost like people forgot that it was MY connections that proved Stacy innocent…and yet no matter what is going on, they seem to think I’m the one that fucked everything up instead of Winter.
And let’s not even get into the whole relationship thing.
I mean, as much as they want to knock on me, at least I didn’t choose the date I proposed to my ex AND her birthday on top of it as my wedding day to my current fiancé. Yet I don’t see anyone getting on Katie’s ass for that. I love the girl, don’t get me wrong, but no matter how you look at it, that’s a dick move.
Stacy might be okay with that, but now I’m starting to wonder exactly what kind of people I’m dealing with.
Kate suggested Halloween not because of my birthday, but because of our love of cosplaying. If, for example, she’d suggested Lucas’ birthday, my first instinct would be to ask “Okay, why would that work?” Just like I’d expect her to throw up question marks if I suggested Juliana’s birthday.
And yet, Katie’s almost getting a free pass from Tyron for doing this shit.
No, sir, I’M not the damn problem with her. And kindly keep her name away from us.
Not that he’ll ever read this, of course…
Still, the idea that there is a clear and obvious favoritism between the two of us when I’m not even being near a bitch to my friends as Katie is…
Or hell, even Kelsey.
It’s funny Tyron and I agree on that one notion, because the more I see of Kelsey and her mannerisms, the less I’m convinced she’s not like Rebecca in a way. The way she words herself is almost prime for triggering comments like Farrah and Zoey have been dealing with. Yet somehow everyone cowers to her as if she’s the innocent one.
Right.
And Penny’s next in line for popehood.
So yeah, I hope Kesley gets karma hit hard on her for what she did.
But I’d be remiss if I didn’t think she might have had good reason for what she did.
So Tyron and Becky expect me to be thrown off my game by their statements.
That’s perfectly fine.
Because what they don’t know is that their comments are only fueling my fire.
And they’re not facing Jamilyn Cornett at Breakthrough…
They’re facing a whole different animal.
Because I tried to warn people before.
I tried to warn them they didn’t wanna fuck with me mentally.
But noooo, apparently the Saint City Affinity didn’t get that memo.
So Shadow Chaos is gonna have to teach some bitches a few lessons that didn’t get observed through the Naughty Girls last time.
Let’s just hope that this time, I can control what she does a bit more. Last time got a bit…scary.
[Jamilyn finishes writing in her diary and closes it, smiling. She’d done a lot of good this week…standing up for Penny against her parents, mending the fence between Kate and her mom…her therapist was likely going to give her hell Monday, but Jami could handle that.
Katelyn comes into the office smiling in her pajamas. Of course, “pajamas” in this house amounted to little more than a tank top and panties, but it was still enough.]
Kate: What are you still doing up, Mistress?
[Jami chuckles at that. Ever since Katelyn had admitted to feeling more submissive to Jami, the two’s relationship had evolved to the point where Katelyn had no problem referring to Jami as such in public. Potentially another problem Tyron and Becky had, but so long as Katelyn was happy with her role, Jami wasn’t about to complain.]
Jami: Just writing down some thoughts, my pet. I was actually about to come to bed.
Kate: Good…Nikki and Alex were upset you weren’t there today.
Jami: Yeah, but you know why I had to do that.
Kate: I know.
[Katelyn walks up to Jami and kisses her deeply.]
Kate: And I’m glad you did it. At least Mom and I worked things out…that’s something I never would have thought possible until you came into my life, Michaeleigh.
Jami: And I’d do it again in a heartbeat, Cecilia. I love you too much to let everything happen like that. Let’s get to bed. As exhausted as I am, I need more than my fair share of rest.
Kate: I’d say so. I love you too, sweetheart.
[As the couple begin to head to bed, Katelyn turns to Jami with a question.]
Kate: So how did today connect to your therapy, anyway?
Jami: Best not to think about that, my love. Besides, that was more your moment than mine.
Kate: Yes, but that’s what you said it was about, so it had to connect somehow.
Jami: You’re right…I just don’t want to talk about it right now.
Kate: Michaeleigh, I love you, but this is getting crazy. I know you care about the happiness of me and the rest of our girls more than your own, but sooner or later you’re going to have to start focusing on your own. You can’t keep running from your past forever.
[Jami smiles and kisses Katelyn deeply, pretending to drop the subject, but deep down she knows Katelyn is right. Eventually, her past is going to have to be addressed.
And maybe it’s time for that to happen…]
[From Jamilyn’s personal diary, July 30th, 2016, 6:00PM Pacific Daylight Time]
{Mood Music: “Renegades” by X Ambassadors}
The last couple weeks…where do I even start…
The post-Breakthrough conversation I had with Kat regarding her management of emotions?
The connection I formed with Maddie in the middle of all this?
The dinner at Zoey’s parents’ place with Kate?
Meeting Nick and Chelsea and seeing Nick respond to me more than he apparently had any other girl? (See, the guys think I’m ugly! LMAO)
The latest therapy appointment where even Dr. Layton was starting to question whether I needed these sessions in the first place?
The confrontation I had to have with Penny’s parents after they made Nikki cry and tried to abduct Penny back to Nashville?
The conversation I had with Klavdiya about Kate’s past and the subsequent conversation with her parents today that gave Kate at least some closure?
No.
None of that matters right now.
Because now my words are getting twisted against me.
I was apparently ignored because I’m ‘pathetic’ and ‘playing mind games.’
She’s calling my fiancé a bimbo.
She thinks it’s coincidental that I wanted to broaden my understanding at the time of our match.
She’s trying to compare racism to my distrust of the male gender. (Someone needs to call Crystal Hilton, by the way, on likeness rights…those two are looking WAY too similar to take Rebecca similarly, and…yeah, let’s not get into that whole Crystal mess right now.)
She thinks I LIKE the fact that my sexuality is being used to define me in VoW instead of my past accolades in the ring.
She thinks I’m pretending this is a game.
And wrestling goddess? Please. I’ve seen people like Kayla Winters who had more talent than her and never got the respect they deserved.
He assumes that I should hide away who I am because it could corrupt his daughter.
A girl who should seriously be more controlled on her social media than she is. Seriously, my dad wouldn’t even let my sister get a Twitter until she graduated high school, and as for Gene….
Okay, bad topic, Jami, refocus.
He doesn’t WANT Mimi thinking for herself; he wants her under his control.
He’s now backtracking saying he DIDN’T throw the match for Katie when he’s made public statements to the contrary.
He’s trying to blame ME for Katie’s downfall.
He’s trying to make it sound like I’M a cancer to VoW.
….he brought Dad into this.
And that’s when it hit me.
They’re doing exactly what Dad would do.
They’re trying to throw us off our game long enough to get the win.
That’s not going to happen.
Rebecca had her chance to prove me wrong by openly talking to me and making her position known. Instead, she hid like a coward and felt it necessary to throw shade under the bus.
Tyron assumed he had me convinced he was different, yet continued to make the same tired stereotypical assumptions every other male has about me.
YOU WOULD THINK after beating the fuck out of Katalina, pinning Maddie, and winning the match, Casa De Kami would be taken more seriously.
The problem is, we’re not.
And it damn sure ain’t because of Kate and I.
No….maybe Chelsey had a point…before she decided bailing on Dad in the middle of her own personal drama was a smart idea. Maybe Alex, Nikki, and Penny are the problem.
But wait…
It’s not their fault they get excited about what goes on in the house.
It’s not their fault everyone else in their lives save for a select few have shit on them.
Granted, they get a little too public about it, but Kate and I are public figures…what we do is going to get scrutinized just for us being us.
So just like Tyron and Rebecca are trying to make this about their daughter, I have to focus on this match to make it known that my girls are just as important.
They can try to blame us all they want that an underage girl could be corrupted into *gasp* original thought by experiencing things outside their little bubble, but at the end of the day…they’re being irresponsible parents by not putting a cap on what their kid can and can’t do.
And as for their addressing my sexism…
I never denied I wasn’t.
You have a guy fuck you at four years old, do it for a year before your biological father can get you out of that hellhole, then twelve years later the same guy knocks you up AND kills the baby, along with any dreams you might have had about being a parent from that point forward, not to mention the rest of what that dick’s done to my family over the course of twenty years…
Well, if that doesn’t color someone’s perspective about the male race, then they weren’t normal to begin with.
I’ve been trying to improve on that, that’s part of what my therapy session this last Monday was about. I was at least trying to be respectful to those two, but they had to go and fuck it up.
And then there’s the hypocrisy that they’re trying to blame me for Katie’s downfall when, if you REALLY start to think about it, I TRIED TO PREVENT THAT SHIT FROM HAPPENING!!!
It’s almost like people forgot that it was MY connections that proved Stacy innocent…and yet no matter what is going on, they seem to think I’m the one that fucked everything up instead of Winter.
And let’s not even get into the whole relationship thing.
I mean, as much as they want to knock on me, at least I didn’t choose the date I proposed to my ex AND her birthday on top of it as my wedding day to my current fiancé. Yet I don’t see anyone getting on Katie’s ass for that. I love the girl, don’t get me wrong, but no matter how you look at it, that’s a dick move.
Stacy might be okay with that, but now I’m starting to wonder exactly what kind of people I’m dealing with.
Kate suggested Halloween not because of my birthday, but because of our love of cosplaying. If, for example, she’d suggested Lucas’ birthday, my first instinct would be to ask “Okay, why would that work?” Just like I’d expect her to throw up question marks if I suggested Juliana’s birthday.
And yet, Katie’s almost getting a free pass from Tyron for doing this shit.
No, sir, I’M not the damn problem with her. And kindly keep her name away from us.
Not that he’ll ever read this, of course…
Still, the idea that there is a clear and obvious favoritism between the two of us when I’m not even being near a bitch to my friends as Katie is…
Or hell, even Kelsey.
It’s funny Tyron and I agree on that one notion, because the more I see of Kelsey and her mannerisms, the less I’m convinced she’s not like Rebecca in a way. The way she words herself is almost prime for triggering comments like Farrah and Zoey have been dealing with. Yet somehow everyone cowers to her as if she’s the innocent one.
Right.
And Penny’s next in line for popehood.
So yeah, I hope Kesley gets karma hit hard on her for what she did.
But I’d be remiss if I didn’t think she might have had good reason for what she did.
So Tyron and Becky expect me to be thrown off my game by their statements.
That’s perfectly fine.
Because what they don’t know is that their comments are only fueling my fire.
And they’re not facing Jamilyn Cornett at Breakthrough…
They’re facing a whole different animal.
Because I tried to warn people before.
I tried to warn them they didn’t wanna fuck with me mentally.
But noooo, apparently the Saint City Affinity didn’t get that memo.
So Shadow Chaos is gonna have to teach some bitches a few lessons that didn’t get observed through the Naughty Girls last time.
Let’s just hope that this time, I can control what she does a bit more. Last time got a bit…scary.
[Jamilyn finishes writing in her diary and closes it, smiling. She’d done a lot of good this week…standing up for Penny against her parents, mending the fence between Kate and her mom…her therapist was likely going to give her hell Monday, but Jami could handle that.
Katelyn comes into the office smiling in her pajamas. Of course, “pajamas” in this house amounted to little more than a tank top and panties, but it was still enough.]
Kate: What are you still doing up, Mistress?
[Jami chuckles at that. Ever since Katelyn had admitted to feeling more submissive to Jami, the two’s relationship had evolved to the point where Katelyn had no problem referring to Jami as such in public. Potentially another problem Tyron and Becky had, but so long as Katelyn was happy with her role, Jami wasn’t about to complain.]
Jami: Just writing down some thoughts, my pet. I was actually about to come to bed.
Kate: Good…Nikki and Alex were upset you weren’t there today.
Jami: Yeah, but you know why I had to do that.
Kate: I know.
[Katelyn walks up to Jami and kisses her deeply.]
Kate: And I’m glad you did it. At least Mom and I worked things out…that’s something I never would have thought possible until you came into my life, Michaeleigh.
Jami: And I’d do it again in a heartbeat, Cecilia. I love you too much to let everything happen like that. Let’s get to bed. As exhausted as I am, I need more than my fair share of rest.
Kate: I’d say so. I love you too, sweetheart.
[As the couple begin to head to bed, Katelyn turns to Jami with a question.]
Kate: So how did today connect to your therapy, anyway?
Jami: Best not to think about that, my love. Besides, that was more your moment than mine.
Kate: Yes, but that’s what you said it was about, so it had to connect somehow.
Jami: You’re right…I just don’t want to talk about it right now.
Kate: Michaeleigh, I love you, but this is getting crazy. I know you care about the happiness of me and the rest of our girls more than your own, but sooner or later you’re going to have to start focusing on your own. You can’t keep running from your past forever.
[Jami smiles and kisses Katelyn deeply, pretending to drop the subject, but deep down she knows Katelyn is right. Eventually, her past is going to have to be addressed.
And maybe it’s time for that to happen…]
