Post by Gwendolyn Massey on Jul 30, 2016 22:31:11 GMT -6
:: The Killing Joke; my version of a finisher that I have been using since the beginning of my journey, now a standard move that I bust out when I need someone flat on their faces. A move that has ended countless adversaries that come face to face with me. A cutter, in this profession, a jumping neckbreaker, all so deadly. The name came from the title of a Batman story that is so pivotal in its rich history - one that told a story of what happens when someone just has one bad day and is hit with everything at one time?
Imagine that being the last thing you see before you are staring up at the ceiling on your back? Imagine the emotions that could potentially be running through you, trying to figure out life and see if it were a mistake stepping in the ring with someone who goes by The Lady Joker herself.
In that fatal four way, there were no friends, there damn near weren’t any enemies. We all wanted to prove that we all had what it took in order to get our hands raised at the end of it. It wasn’t a bold decision to have the four of us in the ring, it was not match of the night - it was another one of those things that had to happen as we all head into Heatstroke very shortly. You could visibly tell that Winter Pine wasn’t in it, Heath Williams was more distracted by his ‘ brother ‘ and Kincaid? He physically was in the match but mentally - was somewhere else. All perfect factors for someone like myself to conjure up a shit storm of chaos and run around like a chicken with its head cut off.
Some of the best that VoW has had to offer up in the forms of Rayne Draven Omega, Winter Pine, Heath Williams and even Craig and Kincaid - I have taken them and moved them to the back. Do I have an assignment that I am trying to complete? Do I have a certain goal that I wish to meet before I start making claims to championship titles and champions? Not really.. It is just a matter of time before I set my sights on one and not even management can deny me of that.. Just you wait.
Hell, it could be anyone.. I do not come with a road map, I do things at random the majority of the time.. And I have no shame about that either. A reason, why I am the wielder of such a powerful move known as the Remedy of Chaos. It isn’t hard how to control it, to mold and shape it into something that could do some damage. I don’t wish to control it, I only wish to use it as a means to knock some sense back into those I face - Winter Pine was the first one. Hopefully, she will decide which persona she will be for a while. In addition to knowing which lane she will stay in and not dabble in lanes she has no idea how to be in.
All in all, I was the victor on that night. I went that extra mile in order to show the world that the Lady Joker belongs in VoW. I have proven that each and every place that I have been but.. Still, I feel like people are not as afraid of me as they should be. I feel like people still look at me and do not see the accomplished young woman.. But see someone who is trying to take their spots that they have been working for. I mean, look at the Quest for the Case participants. Each and every person in that match has their own story.. Some stupid as fuck.. While others are worth paying attention to and seeing whether or not they will show up and show out in that match. Mine? Depending on what is inside that case.. I will use that and once again prove to the world why.. When I have a case, I am one of the most dangerous people on the planet.
But the ultimate question on everyone’s minds.. Has to be what is next for the Lady Joker? Who will be standing in her way next or who will be the one who is able to stop her? Honestly, anyone can stop the Lady Joker.. It all depends on whether or not they will be able to do it again and again and again. At that point, that person would’ve solved the code to the Lady Joker.
But again, we pose the question.. Who is next?
In front of the Lady Joker will be the woman that has taken VoW as her kingdom and will never ultimately admit to it. The only champion that is truly liked by all, respect by all and feared by all - without the exception of me. Your Xcel Champion; Constance Chaplin. She will be the next woman to step into the ring with the Lady Joker in what should have been the main event. Knowing that the two of us are going to blow the house down, we are going to do what is needed to be done. In some people’s eyes.. A win for me does a lot.. A win for Constance does nothing.
Heh..
If you only truly knew what this match will be about.. You would understand that I am excited for this one. It is not because she is the champion - I could give a shit less about that - shows you exactly how I feel. No, this woman, everywhere she has been.. Has had people talking about her. I want to know what was all the excitement and vice versa.
I am not concerned with the fact that she beat Zahara. I am not concerned at the fact that she carries herself as a better champion than most of the others. What I am concerned with.. Is whether or not she will entertain me, will she be able to honestly make me feel alive in a place that has been feeling almost lifeless - when concerned with myself - will she be able to hang with everything that I intend on throwing her way and give it back to me?
Here’s to hoping.. Right?
Simple.. ::
As the days count down.. As the hour creeps closer..
Nothing but thoughts continue to have their way within my head. It wasn’t one of those situations that I am questioning everything that I know - that I may value. It was boiling down to how to handle the next move, how to play that next card. Over the last couple of weeks, being vocal has been the way that I have voiced displeasure, my excitement, my disappointments.
Something that others do by bitching and moaning..
As I set my sights on this Quest for the Case - I am slowly beginning to burn out, not because of the limitless abundance of talent - because it is not fun. There is no one in VoW at the moment that seems to make me excited or happy. I’d hate to prove people right, those very same people who have said in the past that I only show up for a paycheck.
They were wrong then.. And they are wrong now..
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“ We are so close, I can almost taste it! I can see it now, The Lady Joker, besting everyone in front of her and working her way through the ranks in VoW! This isn’t like Pride Pro and this isn’t like Inferno. Your hype is still in tact, you still have that aura of unpredictability because no one has forced your hand yet. In other words, you are doing pretty well for yourself! “, Chava Normandy expressed her pleasure towards the young woman who sat there in an office chair not paying her any attention whatsoever. Today was none other than a visit to the Renati building where Chava does have an office, it was time to check out the progress the two have made since their partnership.. Which has almost been a year in the coming months.
Through everything that the Lady Joker has been through, it was not overnight. There was struggle, heartbreak, success and failure. She has been to the promise land and she has been in the position she is in now - trying to build a reputation even though she already has one. This is something that is not new to her.. But it is something that is a constant. Back then, Ayana Massey, better known as Gwendolyn Massey to those outside of her circle, was an angry person. She had no reason to hold anything back because she felt cheated, she felt belittled by her own co-workers who would look past her because she carried such a moniker. They took her as a running joke.
It did not matter how many people she defeated clean, it did not matter how many people she defeated fucking dirty - no one respected the woman’s craft. Frustration began to kick in and she was between a rock and a hard place, trying to manage her time, her failing relationships and her all fucked up personal life; yes, the one that no one seems to give a shit about because in this profession, we only care about who is fucking who. Drama around every corner, there were moments that the white flag was damn near glued on the pole and just waiting for the order to wave it. She was tired, even now, of having to prove herself when stacked up against people who are technically beneath her.. She has to go all out and then some
Least, that was until Renati approached her with something she could not turn down. An opportunity to test out a program that failed with another client but seems to be working with her. The twenty something, blonde curly hair and a shape out of this world.. Who wanted nothing more than to get her name out - to get someone where they see themselves and build a reputation for herself. Chava Normandy is that person. Giving up everything, she went beyond the call of duty on multiple occasions and have fought behind the scenes to fix certain fuck ups by management. Normandy is easy on the eyes but promised the Lady Joker since day one that no matter what..
They would make it together..Which has brought these two together on this day. That momentary silence between them was now normal and it wasn’t because there wasn’t interest, no, it was more so to figure out their next moves were going to be. You couldn’t be around someone who claims to be a jester and not have something up your own sleeve. Extending her index finger, Chava pointed towards the Lady Joker with a smile on her features and just didn’t say anything.
“ What? “, Ayana questioned
Again, silence. In her mind, Chava must be trying to test her.. Playing a game.. Or worse.. Just fucking with her. Extending her arms out, trying to gesture for Chava to say something, Ayana posed the question once again --
“ What?! What the fuck are you pointing at? “. She asked the woman before she shook her head laughing to herself. It got to the point to where she was laughing uncontrollably. This, in fact, was a rare sight to see. Ms. Business, having a good laugh.. It became contagious. While it was dying down, Chava continued to keep her finger up through it all and just shook her head
“ You don’t understand it yet do you? Look at the two of us, the two most unlikely people who were placed together and in turn.. You and I are going places. When I sit back and look at everything that you are going to be heading into, I don’t see fear. Usually, you’d be sitting somewhere trying to figure out how to relax or trying to figure out what your next move to be - but that is different today isn’t it? The game that you play, this very dangerous one, you constantly continue to prove why you excel at it more than others.. “, Chava mentioned as she placed her finger down and tapped on the table.
Since standing up to the board when it came down to Omega trying to keep her away from beating his wife, Chava has not been one to hold their tongues. Giving pending warning about a woman who was going to make ripples throughout their establishment. Chava knew what was on the agenda, she knew what the plans were.. But did not know how the young woman was going to handle them.
“ Why? At first, I was trying to find footing in a place where it was not going to happen. I was trying to make friends with people that I could care less about. Now? I am going to take it from the jaws of those people who believe that they are relevant. I am going to take away that spotlight and make them fall back down. Do you see why now? I mean, look at my opponent this week - Constance Chaplin. Unlike others, I am fighting her for her spotlight, I am fighting her to be fighting her. This isn’t about a championship title nor is it about vying for one. Constance is someone that I have watched while my twin and her associates were fighting in GPW. I sat back and I literally just watched, I know this woman will not hold back. So, I am not worried about whether or not she will bring it - If anything, I am trying to see past this match “, Ayana said before she grew silent
“ So yeah, this game that I play, this game that I make seem effortless - the very same one that people assume that I have all the answers for. In truth, I don’t. I am just ahead of the curve and that is the way that I carry myself. So who knows, maybe Constance will pull a white rabbit out of her ass and make true magic, I don’t fucking know.. But what I do know is that when that bell rings.. I am going to show that woman - someone that I could’ve had the pleasure or displeasure of having to face one time before.. What it means to be across from me. Hell, let’s be honest, I do not intend on being Kincaid and allowing a win over a champion to slip between my fingers; not like that “, Smiling towards Chava, the Lady Joker made well known
It was something that I didn’t want to allow to happen. Having someone like Constance show up and show out all due to her being a champion. People back their hometown heroes especially when faced with a threat. I have no intentions on allowing her to come back and work harder than me, to outshine me when it comes down to style - especially after how long I have been doing this.
“ So, you are up to this task? As you just stated, this isn’t going to be easy. You are going to be in for a fight.. “, Chava said
“ Focus on what we can control and fight against what we cannot. That is the most simple answer that I have for you. I do not have any intentions on having you disappear from my side. You and I are going places. Whether it be in VoW or somewhere else. This partnership between the Lady Joker and yourself is nothing but destined. Hell, you know that I am going to do what needs to be done.. “, Ayana said as she begun to spin around in the chair
She said that we were so close, that we have been in this for a very long time. I have no intentions on letting this woman go. Not after everything she has given up just to get here alongside me. Even though I am looking ahead towards my opponent, I know that she isn’t trying to play friendly with anyone. I know that she isn’t trying to make friends and try to fuck me over at a later time. She and I are going to be going into a match in order to see which one of us can outlast one another.
Which one of us wants it more than the other.. And lately, I have been hungrier than the others..
Which one of us wants it more than the other.. And lately, I have been hungrier than the others..
“Insist on yourself; never imitate. Your own gift you can present every moment with the cumulative force of a whole life's cultivation; but of the adopted talent of another you have only an extemporaneous half possession. That which each can do best, none but his Maker can teach him.. "
― Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self-Reliance
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“ We need to talk, Ayana “..
These words, those fabled words that could mean a million things - good and or bad - for some, could mean the end of all things. On an evening such as this, the house quiet, the neighbors are done with their festivities and the mood was just right; she went to say those words. The very last time those words were said to me, I was a split second from attacking my ex and going to jail for domestic assault.
Mireya was someone who did not hold her tongue and respected the role that she was currently toting around. She loved being the Lady Joker’s girlfriend, she enjoyed the special perks and the lifestyle seeing that she words a regular nine to five on a good day. I loved that about her, for never getting a big head and just rolling with the punches.. But on this night - something was amidst.
And.. I had no idea where this could lead..
“ Okay.. I don’t mind. So what’s on your mind? “, Ayana asked as she patted the seat right next to her, motioning for Mireya to come and sit beside her. Instead of just sitting down, she slowly decided to take her time to getting to that point. It made Ayana want to ask a question but she neglected to at first until before she knew it - she was asking it. “ Babes, what version am I dealing with? Am I dealing with Mad Mireya, Upset at me Mireya, Parallel sex crazed Mireya? “
“ Just Mireya, love “, She stated as she took a seat and rested her legs on her lovers. “ I wanted to just sit down and talk to you. I have been noticing some things that I am not a fan of, one of the biggest ones were the looks that you and I were getting at Nina’s wedding “
“ So wh -- “
“ Kendall, our baby kendall, was standing there in her beautiful dress but had visible bruises on her. The very same ones that you inflicted on her. I felt like people were blaming us for them, even though training is what it is. Lately, you’ve been going to this place and you have been blurring the lines between getting the job done and having to continue to prove yourself. I don’t like it.. And maybe that is because I don’t understand what goes on in your head Ayana.. “, Mireya expressed as she threw her hands up for a moment. “ Then, turn around.. I have noticed that you seem to want this young lady to hate and respect you. I know, a double negative.. But it is true.. “
“ I totally do not! “, before she knew it, she was cutting Mireya off. “ I do not want Kendall to hate me. I want her at her best! There were plenty of times that I walked around trying to figure out how to mask my bruises that I got when Nekia and I trained when I was her age. Granted, I lost my cool.. I will admit that but she fought me back - she did not lay there and take it and for that.. I am proud of her.. “
“ Are you!? Through hate, you actually believe that she will become a better version of you? While you are still holding onto sh- “, stopping herself mid-sentence, she took a breath and calmed down. “ Still holding onto stuff that has made you who you are and continuing to mold you? Baby.. that’s not right. I have heard some of your conversations with Zahara and Datura and anyone else who you may like or dislike. You give them more respect than you do your own student! I understand that you said you see a little bit of you inside her.. But dammit, she isn’t you! “
“ I get that but Mireya -- “
“ Do you really!? You are the Lady Joker. Period. I understand that you have a lot to deal with but this attitude of yours, because you don’t know what’s next is really toxic. I moved in with you because I thought that we were ready for this. For some of the people you face, child’s play. Others? Obsession.. On both ends. They want to beat you because of who you are - you want to beat them because you feel not respected when you should be. I get that.. But compare my job to yours. I am someone who works a nine to five, sits and works personally by the side of an attorney -- “
“ -- a shitty one.. “
“ But an attorney nonetheless, smart ass “, in that moment, Ayana knew not to interrupt anymore due to Mireya dropping cuss words more often than she usually does. “ My boss makes me mad, he makes me feel underappreciated at times but because I love what I do.. I have no issues. I continue to be the best that we have and I shine brightly through that. Lately, you’ve voiced your opinion, you beat their best.. And you have an opportunity to beat another - why not continue to take out what they have instead of being like those other women who want to remind you about where they came from or what’s going on in their lives!? Isn’t that why people like me gravitate towards you!? Because you offer up so much more!? “
Not knowing what to say next, Ayana just sat there trying not to make eye contact with her lover. It wasn’t until she felt Mireya move closer and tilt her head up towards her to make her look at her. Resting her hand on her cheek, she caressed it.
“ You know better. You are better. All I want you to know is that I am not happy with this one bit. I won’t run to social media and voice my dislikes of you or what goes on in our home.. But I want you to understand that this.. You need to stop. If you’re stressed, then let me help you with that. If you are hurt, let me help you get better. If you are sad, let me make you happy.. That is all I ask. I know you have an important match coming up - like always, show them what the Lady Joker is made of.. “, Playfully mushing her face with a smile before kissing her, Mireya just sat there. “ Pretend that I just mushed a pie in your face .. “
“ Is that how much you love me or something? "
“ Heh.. not even close.. I swear, if you weren’t so cute.. “
To whom it MAY concern…
Shit.. I REALLY need to stop doing these this way.. Because we all know who it concerns this week…
When I look at VoW, I see its stars, I see the people who are supposed to rule it with an iron fist. One rules under fear and oppression, the other rules through brute force and with boldness the other is trying to gain their footing while the other is so distracted that you could’ve sworn that you have seen this happen before.. Somewhere.. Anywhere.. Just not surprising that it happened here. These are supposed to be the ‘ guards ‘ those individuals that everyone should have some type of motivation to want to defeat, dethrone and conquer.. But for some.. Gaining footing with another person and taking out the people who stand together on the tag team line of defense is also just as good.
You see, in this place, I decided to make the champions sound like they are interesting. That the things that are said about them are even worth the time and effort. While, in truth, you have someone who is skilled but is being held back by his mates. You have a champion who is so straightforward that it is a damn shame that I was nowhere near her because we wouldn’t be having this match at Breakthrough - off of just an innocent joke or not - let us not forget about the champion who is trying to show the world that he is a better fit than the one before; trying. While you have the other trying to have a pissing contest with someone he defeated for his position on the throne. Just to keep it honest.
This week, I am tasked with something that many people, no fuckers.. Fuckers before me with the exception of Zahara, only because she has taken the task twice.. Yeah. I am being tasked with taking on the Xcel Champion, the very same one that people love seeing in action. The very same one that individuals are so fucking high on.. That maybe, just maybe.. It might be fun knocking her off that seat for a night and just sitting there. Leaving the people starstruck and in awe as I come in, once again and show everyone where I feel like I belong. Knowing that there are levels to this.. I wasn’t expecting this until after the Quest for the Case; win or lose.
I have faced former champions along with their lackeys, no complaints at this point, time and moment. I have faced people who believed that they ran the place.. But follow me for a moment will you, down this imaginary yellow brick road..
I go by the Lady Joker herself..
Heh. How many times did you hear that in this story today huh?
No. I go by the warden of the asylum for a reason. Each and every person in this place holds a secret that would label them. Each and every person here has a number that singles them out. Casanova English is no hero and he would admit that himself. Then again, he is no warden either. He is not someone that I personally can see calling himself one especially when he does not care about the betterment of this place.. More so, just the betterment of his own self. A warden comes down hard when it is time to.. Someone who isn’t afraid to say what needs to be said. Playing a fucking game along the way in order to get people’s eyes open to what is going on around them
Isn’t that right Constance?
You were away for a brief moment. For that, I welcome you back. I am not going to sit here and tell you that I do not know who the fuck you are because I do. I knew who you were back in GPW when management was trying to reach out to me then. I knew who you were when you were floating for a moment and I know who the fuck you are now. That championship title on your shoulder, around your waist, wherever you decide to place it - means nothing to me right now. Was that rude? I apologize, allow me to correct that and more or less explain why I said that..
At Breakthrough, you and I are going to meet for the first time. As it was billed, ANYWHERE ELSE we would be the main event. You want to know why? Because there are places that see star power like that and want to make sure it is shown. You are no pushover, you are not someone that I have faced in my past. You are someone who has shown time in and time out that they have what it takes to get the job done, when it calls for it. I will not take that away from you. Hell, I couldn’t even if I wanted to.
Constance, you are not the champion just because they wanted you as one. When I say they, I mean management, because you have some crooked places around here. You have earned every right to hold that championship title.. But let us not forget who is standing across from you. You have only seen what I can do, you have only heard the things that I have said here.. Not in my other obligations. You only see what I allow you to see and if I were you, I’d be worried. You aren’t people that I have dealt with in the past. Wanting to aim at my moniker, trying to compare me to a comic book character only in name itself.. But not know the nature of the beast.
You must have an idea on who the fuck I am. You must have an idea on the mental strain that I have been through in order to get to this place that I, me, Gwendolyn fucking Massey, wears this title proudly. You MUST know that I must be off my rocker slightly in order to answer to it when called.. And Constance, if you don’t.. Then I feel real sorry for you because you are in for a rude awakening. To me, I am looking at this for what it is worth. This is an opportunity for me to go into Heatstroke with a wave of momentum, the fans behind me, wanting me to outlast, climb, pin, submit, knock out - what the fuck ever - I must do in order to walk out with that case.
Is it a championship title? No.
Is your championship title on the line? No.
Will I still fight you just as hard as I would anyone else? You better fucking believe it.
There are many differences between us. But the similarities are there as well. You want to be hit with some more truth? Let’s be honest for a second or two. You want to live up to that belt’s legacy that has been left behind. Any champion wants to do that, that is fucking simple science. You want to be the best Xcel Champion out there, don’t you? I bet you do. Heh. You are the best at what you do, in your opinion, correct?
I bet the answer is yes, isn’t it?
But I pose another question to you though...
Are you the best at what I do though? Do you think that you will be able to intimidate me? That anything that you say will sway me in the slightest on changing the way that I conduct business? Do you fucking know what is in my hand? I bet you don’t. I fucking bet you! You want to know why? Because at the drop of a damn dime, I can change into that person you want to see so bad. That myth that people have been trying to discredit, to say that she isn’t real.
You will witness first hand what I can do. Afterwards? You will understand why I gave you that shout out when I first walked through the doors. It wasn’t to become your friend, shit, it wasn’t even to stay on your good side. I called you out because I wanted to see which champion would answer the call. Which one of the guards would see the challenge in front of them and take it on.. Instead of dealing with dead fucking weight.
Chaplin, you were the first. You are the first person in VoW that I am excited about facing. Not because I see you as that person who answered the call. No. Because I see you as the person who is going to leave everything she has in that ring, just long enough for me to step over it when I am ready to exit it after making you tap.
You didn’t expect to answer the call and not feel the effects of the Joker’s calling did you? I know that you didn’t expect to come into the squared circle and walk out the very same.. Because even if you pull that magic rabbit out your ass - I promise you, you will want more.. You will want to prove yourself against me again.. But that is no simple task.
And deep down.. I know you know that.. It is that fucking simple..
