Post by Deleted on Jan 30, 2016 15:27:19 GMT -6
Another week and yet another loss, and it was all my fault. If I wasn’t so Hell bent on beating the shit out of Winter, I would have spotted Matt hitting Tyron with the Total Punishment a lot sooner and would have been able to make the save, keeping the match alive.
But that match seemed to have it’s fair share of events throughout, first with Seth coming out to try and get his hands on English and chasing him out of the fucking building. In all honesty, as much as I can’t blame the guy for wanting to get his hands on that rotten scumbag, I am a bit pissed about it since my plan was to win the match myself by pinning or submitting English to show him and the rest of VoW that I can beat the champ.
And then there was the appearance of Dathyn who knocked Heath out when the referee was otherwise busy trying to stop a certain two women from beating the fuck out of one another, my bad. I hope he’s okay though, that was a nasty shot, right to the back of the head as well.
And of course there was the little altercation after the match as well, when Matt and Winter decided it would be fun to beat me into next week, and had it not been for Katie, they probably would have succeeded in doing so.
Yes, I’m avoiding talking about what happened earlier that night when I revealed that I had spoken with Ms. Sangue about getting a one on one match at Double Jeopardy against Winter Pine and had signed the contract and called that bitch out to sign it herself to make it official. She did just that, before she went all feral on me and tried to bite my fucking forehead off...luckily she just got some of my hair, but she pulled it right out of my skin which caused me to bleed a little. That bitch is going to pay for that...
It’s only just a day after Breakthrough, so I’m not thinking about getting all packed up and ready to set off to Puerto Rico for the Pay-Per-View. I am rather excited about this trip though, this will be the first time I’ve ever wrestled over in Puerto Rico after all, there have been many different countries I have wrestled in over my career, but this hasn’t been one of them.
Dressed in my usual attire along with a black Iron Maiden T-shirt, I reach the hotel room belonging to Tyler and Zelda. It’s funny, normally if I’m in a shitty mood, I come to see them to get my mind off things, but this time it’s different. This time I’m here to speak to Zelda about Winter, I need to know everything there is to know about this evil witch. I knock three times on the door and wait patiently for one of them to answer the door, whilst softly humming the tune to “Run To The Hills”.
"One second!!!"
Zelda yells from the other side of the door before I hear the sound of things rustling around. The door finally opens to reveal Zelda in a pink bath robe, and looking down past her pregnant belly I notice she has cotton balls between each of her toes, so I assume she was busy painting her nails.
"Stacy! Oh God I didn't expect you back around here after dinner, if that wasn't obvious by my current attire. Are looking for Tyler? Because he just went down to the hotel workout area to get in some cardio if you are looking for him."
“No, I was looking for you actually...but if you’re too busy, I can come back some other time...”
"Oh no no, you know I'm perfectly fine with spending time with my best friend. Here, let's get in before it gets too chilly outside."
Before I can say anything, Zelda pulls me inside the room and shuts the door, then goes and jumps back on the bed in their room and goes back to painting her nails.
"I can do yours too if you want, but while I work on mine what is it you were needing me for?"
Walking into the room, I take my electronic cigarette with Dr Pepper flavoured liquid out of my pocket and sit down in the chair opposite the bed, facing her.
“Is it okay if I use this in here?”
She nods before going back to painting her nails as I take a drag, tilting my head back, I slowly blow the vapour up towards the ceiling. I don’t want to risk the vapour getting too close to Zelda, just in case there are some unknown dangers with these things that could put the baby at risk.
“I presume you watched Breakthrough...”
Zelda's face quickly shoots up from her nails to me with that little statement, and slowly a very uncomfortable smile begins to form on her face as she speaks through her teeth.
"Oh...which part...the part where the bitch with the wolf jacket tried to FUCKING cannibalize you? Or the part where dipshit and your ex husband tried to beat the Hell out of you like sadistic animals...because...I know I saw THOSE parts...ha ha ha ha..."
Okay, that was rather weird, but then again, I don’t blame her for reacting that way. But I need to try and calm her down, can’t be doing anything to jeopardize the health of the baby.
“Relax, Zel...I’m fine...it doesn’t matter if I’m the one getting my ass kicked, I’m just thankful it wasn’t you...”
Zelda begins to pace her breathing a bit to calm down, and I do notice a few tears begin rolling down her face as she does this.
"I...sorry those hormones can really get to you while you got a little soul inside you, huh? Ha...I just...I hate myself so much for being the one responsible for Winter to even be stuck on trying to do all these mean things to you. Like...it's just all my fault...and...I really failed you as a friend."
Fucking hormones, I know all about them, wait...don’t think about that now, that’s re-opening another kettle of fish that needs to wait and be dealt with when I’m better mentally.
“Zelda...”
I place my e-cig on the beside table and move over to the bed and sit down beside her, taking my jacket off, I take hold of her right arm and hold it up, showing her the silver friendship bracelet I bought her for Christmas that has the words ‘Sisters For Life’ engraved on the outside of it and ‘Zelda and Stacy’ engraved on the inside of it. I then hold up my right arm, showing the matching bracelet I got as well.
“...if you had failed me as a friend, why would I have gotten you this bracelet for Christmas? Why would I have written that Christmas letter to you where every single word of it was from the heart. If you had failed me as a friend, you wouldn’t have helped and continue helping me through my depression...”
Letting go of her arm, I place both of my hands onto her shoulders and look deep into her eyes.
“You can’t blame yourself for Winter putting me through all of this...I was the one who chose to be friends with you. The fact that Winter has this past with you and Ty, it isn’t going to change anything...I will always be by your side, no matter what. When I got these bracelets made, I did it wanting this to be a bond for life...a bond that will never be broken, no matter what!”
Zelda breaks a smile through the tears as I say this, but I can tell she is still trying to remain very serious.
"I should have let you in more about Winter before this got to this level, any of this. I'm to blame for this because Winter...Winter may be deceiving but she isn't being much of that kind of person when referring to me by certain names...and it's time I let you know why that is the case."
“That’s why I’m here...I want to know everything about your past with her, anything that can give me some ammo against her...”
I notice she looks a little worried about what she’s about to tell me, so I take hold of her hand and cup it between both of mine, again, looking deep into her eyes.
“And Zelda, nothing you tell me will make me think any less of you. If there is something that you’re ashamed of...a mistake you made or whatever, I don’t care. We all make mistakes, and that was in the past...this is the present. And as far as the present and future goes for you and I, we’re going to be sisters for life...and I mean that...”
"O-okay...okay I need to do this."
She takes in a deep breath, takes a few moments to stare at me, then begins.
"Well...if it was never obvious, I actually am not a Southern native, I actually was born and raised for the longest time in Toronto. Around age thirteen, my family moved to St. Paul, Minnesota, and it was here where I actually first met Winter...Jennifer...and she was actually the sweetest girl in the whole entire world. I was so afraid of everyone when I got to the new school there and she protected me from day one...believe it or not, Winter and I were almost as close to each other as you and I. And thanks to her, I got out of my shell of shyness and became a very open female, I started going to parties with her, I got drunk..."
Zelda slightly pulls open her robe safely and slightly to show a black and red butterfly right under her left breast.
"Hell, Winter convinced me to get this tattoo, and I turned into a wild child at fourteen. Well...some things led to others because of this, and...believe it or not I actually had a relationship with Winter because of how special she made me feel and because I wanted to rebel against a world where lesbians didn't exactly get much positivity. Sadly in the matter of six months I managed to crumble a lot of things, all because...I decided to cheat on Winter, because I didn't feel pleased enough and I actually went on a date...several dates...with junior guys at the school...”
Pausing for a moment, she takes a deep breath before continuing.
“I...ended up having sex with all of them, about six or seven guys in total...and the next month at school, the truth got spread around enough finally where Winter confronted me and I had to admit that I did that to her under my own merit. I broke her heart, I lost my friend...and after two weeks, she managed to convince her family to move. I hated myself for so long, and after a few months I decided to go back to a more relaxed lifestyle because being so careless brought back a lot of bad memories of what I did to her."
Zelda closes her eyes to relax for a moment, then continues.
"So fast forward to KAPOW...I meet the love of my life in Tyler...I finally feel at peace in life after all those years. That is...until I am introduced to a close friend of Tyler's deceased ex-wife...Winter. Turns out she moved to Alabama after what happened, and ended up finishing high school with Tyler and they were really close, Winter joined wrestling and was a tag partner of Lacey's, Lacey being his ex...”
I grab my e-cig off the bedside table and take another drag of it, blowing it up into the air whilst continuing to listen intently.
“Well, of course Winter snapped on me and then went on telling Tyler about all I did to her...it hurt me so much because initially Tyler actually was considering breaking up with me after I admitted all of that to be true...I'll never know why he didn't. But it got worse...Winter found a way into destroying my heart...she convinced my sister who was in KAPOW with me to go into a relationship with her, and slowly I lost her and nowadays I barely talk to my sister anymore because of how much she got lost in what Winter taught her in their relationship.”
She begins to well up a little bit as she relives these horrible times from her past.
“She wants to physically kill me for not only what I did to her in the past...but for then taking Tyler away from her supposedly. I still blame myself for Winter becoming the way she is...and now she is on you...and I'm afraid you are going to be taken away by her and I have to hang myself emotionally for like the eighth time in my life because of something that involved a girl I wish I could have been a good friend to all those years ago."
With this, Zelda finally stops and immediately breaks down into tears, obviously feeling embarrassed and ashamed with what she just told me.
“Wow...”
I pause, taking another long drag from my e-cig, letting all of the information sink into my brain. I’m honestly in complete shock, hearing all of that, it’s like I’m talking to a completely different person right now. Do I even know her anymore?
"I'm...sorry...I don't deserve your friendship or anyone's...just know in my heart I really am not as cold as that slut I used to be. If I could turn back time...I would have found a way to off myself before I became that whore."
Zelda grasps tightly onto the friendship bracelet as tears begin to roll out more.
"I love you with all of my heart Stacy, you, Katie, Tyler, this baby girl...it's all I really have and I mean that more than anything. No matter my past, no matter my circumstances, I was still woman enough to truthfully admit to Winter my infidelity. I don't want to hurt anyone with lies, I do that enough with actions."
I was wrong, I do know her. The Zelda that I became friends with, she’s the Zelda I know, not who she used to be. I wrap my arms around her tightly, kissing her softly on the side of her head.
“You do deserve my friendship, Zel...you’re not the same person you once were, and had you not been that person, then you wouldn’t have grown and matured into the wonderful human being that you are now...”
Stroking her hair as she rests her head on my chest, a single tear rolls down my cheek.
“What you did to Winter was wrong, yes...but you were barely a teenager for fucks sake, all teenagers do stupid shit, Hell, I did hard drugs when I was a teen. What matters is you’ve learned from those mistakes and have become a better person for it...and even though Winter may believe that her actions towards you are justified, they’re not...”
I rest my head on top of hers, now rubbing her back softly with my hand.
“It’s not your fault she hasn’t let the past go...you didn’t steal Ty away from her because he fell in love with you and love is an emotion and you can’t turn it off and on, you can’t help who you fall in love with. What Winter has done to you, nearly breaking you and Ty apart, successfully ending the relationship between you and your sister, it’s uncalled for...”
Breaking my embrace, I look into her eyes again, wiping away the tears that are streaming down her face.
“I’m not saying these things just because you’re my sister and I love you...I’m saying it because it’s true. And as for you being worried about Winter taking me away from you too? That’s never going to happen...I will always be with you, forever and always...”
"I...I really hope so...look, deep deep down I do still care about Winter as a friend...do I hate her, maybe, but not because of who she is, it's because of what torment I've went through. She very well deserves to feel and act a lot of ways towards me...but I just feel like she is lost in a new form and is never coming back."
Zelda looks deeply at me with another serious tone.
"She isn't my Jennifer...she is a monster...and that black rose...she uses it as her symbol of mental victory because on the day I admitted to her my evil ways I was wearing a black rose in my hair. She wants to make people fear that image as much as she does, deep down it signifies the worst moment of her life probably. Winter is her escape, but for all I know, Jennifer may exist in some form...maybe that key lies in how she loves. But regardless, Winter wants to hurt people to justify the pain she felt from me and so many others after me. I know I'm not the only one that scarred her, but I am the biggest one and that is clear."
Thinking for a moment about everything, I begin to wonder whether I should maybe try and reach out to Winter myself, I honestly don’t know right now.
“Listen, I’m not surprised you still care about her to some degree, and that just shows how great a person you are now. It all makes sense to me now, she’s using me to get to you...she picked a fight with me because she knows how close we are. But she’s not going to achieve her goal...I’m going to put an end to all of this...I can’t promise that I won’t hurt her, she’s done things that I will never forgive her for. And I need you to understand that...”
Zelda tries to smile but a grim look is pushing onto her face.
"It's just weird that she is actually trying to hurt you though. Usually she only aims the pain at me...for you she almost seems intent with really ending you, Stacy. Maybe it's because of Matt or Cass...maybe it's because she sees me in you in some way...honestly, she is on a different spectrum right now to where even I'm not sure if this is about me anymore."
She sits there silently for a moment before then looking back to me.
"But Stacy...there is...one thing I do need to ask you...why?"
I tilt my head to the side a little, staring over to my best friend in complete and utter confusion.
“Why what, Zel?”
"Why...why..."
I suddenly begin to feel a chill down my spine...something isn't right...wait, there is breathing down my neck.
"Why...won't...you...RUN!"
Just as I realize the sound of that wicked woman's voice, in a flash moment I find myself being thrown against the wall of the room I'm in. I'm being held there, Zelda...she seems pale...still...like a statue. And as I turn my head back forward, I see the face of Winter in front of me, it’s now clearly visible she is the one keeping me against the wall.
"Hello buttercup...how is this little chat with the pretty little whore going?"
I immediately snap, trying to force a punch but my body isn't moving. It's like I'm stuck in this position Winter has me in.
“Get your damn hands off of me you FUCKING PSYCHO!!!”
Winter laughs as she moves her right hand off of my wrist, somehow I still can't move my arm. She slowly begins running her finger up my chest, laughing as she does so.
"Did she finally tell you...tell you how she broke me...how I lost the love of my FUCKING LIFE because she decided to turn into this SLUT!"
She stops her finger at my throat, a wicked smile now across her face.
"Oh my...and you still care about her after that long drawn out speech of how sorry she is and how much she is such a whore like I said she is...such a friend...it's pathetic you have to stoop so low. Just look at you now, nothing you can do, stuck in my realm."
“She isn’t the same person that she used to be! You have absolutely no idea how she feels, Jennifer! She wakes up every day, hating herself for what she did to you...but she was young and foolish, people make mistakes all the time! And because you can’t let go of the past, you’re torturing her...when in reality, she’s already torturing herself because she hates the person she became! She still cares about you Jennifer, you need to fucking let her go...let her move on with her life...and you need to do the same...it’s not too late...”
The laughing from Winter gets louder and louder, and as it reaches it's peak, she places her hand against my face, squeezing tightly as she pushes her own face against mine.
"You don't get it do you Stacy? Zelda...she destroyed my life...she killed everything I had to look forward too! I was so committed to what I was. But the funny thing is...she actually helped me in finding me...she woke the wolf and it consumed me, gave me real purpose...for as much as I hate that whore, she saved me from what this life is to people. Trust me my dear, I moved on a long time ago, to the point where now I get to have fun with whoever I want with no remorse."
Just as Winter says this, she immediately shoves her mouth against mine, biting at my bottom lip and pulling it to the point of bleeding before letting go. She smiles as she stares into my eyes.
"Stacy...I despise you for how much you seem to be involved in the path I'm in...and because of that I feel it is my duty to want to decimate you until you crumble. I want to feel you die to my mentality, I want you to surrender your broken little innocence to me so I can toy with this beautiful yet oh so scared body, to caress your emotions in your flesh as I cut you apart with my own hands. I want to be your mental serial killer."
As the blood trickles down my lip, I glare into Winter’s eyes, in all honesty I’m terrified, but I’m not going to give this bitch the satisfaction of knowing that.
“Go to Hell!”
I spit in her face as I continue to try and break myself free from whatever it is that’s restraining me, but it’s no use. My body begins to weaken as it aches from how hard I’ve been trying to break free from the invisible shackles that hold me here. Winter just laughs more, it's almost demonic at this point as she grabs onto my hair and rips out a good chunk, shoving it into her mouth and smiling.
"I rather enjoy the taste, keep up with that conditioner Zelda recommended, it brings out the natural chemicals boiling in your hair follicles."
She pulls the clump of my hair from her mouth, saliva dripping from it, as she shoves it into my throat. Suddenly I drop to the ground as she stands above me.
"You will surrender to me you little baby, you hear me?!? I'm going to ruin you, I will make your life a living hell! Turning your kids against you, hooking up with Matt, those are just baby steps of what's to come. I promise you, this is only the beginning of our journey Stacy. And when it's all said and done...I will make sure after tearing everyone from your life that I will at least be at your tombstone as they bury you twenty feet under."
Winter rears back to kick me, but just as I brace for impact I feel the chill leave my spine. I open one of my eyes and see Tyler holding me in his arms, a heavy breath coming from him.
"Stacy, talk to me damn it! What the actual fuck is wrong?!?"
“Ty-Tyler...is that you?”
"Of course it's me damn it! Are you fucking insane?!? You jump from our fucking balcony and that's what you have to say?!?"
What the Hell is he talking about? Just then I look up and see up on the balcony is Zelda, her hands clenched against her mouth crying immensely. Did...did I jump during whatever that nightmare was that Winter had me stuck in?
"You are fucking lucky I heard Zelda screaming for you to get the Hell down from the railing! Damn near risked my life trying to catch you. Why the actual fuck are you pulling this shit?!?"
Tyler stares at me with the most anger I've ever seen on his face, just then he sees something, I don't know what the Hell it actually is, but he is just staring.
"Was...was it the black rose?"
Suddenly a rush of pain washes through my entire body as I begin to feel light-headed all of a sudden. Whether I’ve suffered some internal injuries from the fall or something else, I don’t know, but I think I may need to go to the hospital or something. I look up at Tyler as my eyelids grow heavier and heavier, and before I pass out completely, I manage to utter one final word.
“Winter...”
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Poor Katie. Not only does she have to deal with visiting her mother in the hospital, after that unfortunate accident involving her father, but now she’s got to deal with visiting me in hospital...again! This is the last thing she needs, if the people she loves are always stuck in hospital, how is she meant to keep her focus on the huge challenge that faces her at Double Jeopardy?
Hopefully she remains strong, and I have the belief that she will be able to overcome the odds in this match. After all, she’s done it before, going into her match against Dathyn when he was still one half of the Twin City Champions, I bet a majority of people expected it to be a cake walk for Dathyn, but Katie came out victorious. When she faced Tyron for the Zero Gravity Championship, the majority probably expected an easy retain for Tyro, but again, Katie came out victorious. She may still be quite green, she may still not have anywhere near the amount of experience that so many of the Visionaries have, but she has a big heart, and she can achieve anything she puts her mind too.
I slowly open my eyes, the blinding bright light pours into them giving me a slight headache as well as forcing my pupils to adjust themselves allowing me to make out my surroundings. An all too familiar place greets me in the form of a hospital room, the plain white walls, the constant beeping noise from the heart monitor and all the other usual things you would associate with a hospital.
After taking some time to gather my bearings, I notice that my right hand is trapped by something so I turn my head towards that direction and sitting on the chair beside my bed is the love of my life, which brings a small smile to my face. She’s fast asleep, probably been there all night poor girl, dressed in a pair of plain white socks, a pair of dark blue Sonic the Hedgehog pyjama bottoms and a short sleeved blue Sonic the Hedgehog T-shirt. Her hand firmly wrapped around mine makes me realize that that’s why it felt trapped and I stare at her beautiful, sweet innocent face.
“Katie...honey...”
She suddenly perks her head up whilst inhaling a short burst of oxygen through her nose, darting her head around like a meerkat checking for predators before her sleepy eyes finally rest on mine.
“Oh hey...h-how are you f-feeling?”
“Got a little bit of a headache, but I’m fine...”
“So what happened? Did you...try and...”
“No...”
I cut her off instantly, I know she probably thinks this was another suicide attempt, but I’m never going to go back to that state ever again. Knowing the amount of pain and suffering that so many people who I love will end up having to go through if that were to happen, I don’t want them to go through it. I’m stronger than that, I can defeat this evil and I will overcome all of my demons.
“No, I didn’t try and commit suicide again...”
“But...they said you jumped...”
“I may have jumped, I don’t really know myself what happened...I was elsewhere in my head...”
“Winter?”
“Yes...Winter...”
I watch as a look of anger crosses her angelic face, her fists ball up and she looks as if she’s about to erupt like a volcano.
“I’m getting sick and tired of the crap that my friends...my future wife...and I have had to deal with at the hands of The Orphanage! They need to be taken care of!”
She says through gritted teeth as she seems rather agitated, almost looking as if she wants to punch or throw something to release her anger.
“I know...but just calm down...I’m exhausted and I don’t want to think or talk about anything to do with them...”
“I’m sorry...I just...”
“I know Katie...I know. How’s your Mom?”
“She’s still unconscious, but she’s improving...I was hoping you’d come and see her with me the next time I go visit...”
“Of course I will...”
Smiling, she strokes her hand up and down my arm before leaning over to me and planting a soft, passionate kiss on my forehead.
“I’ll leave you to get some rest...I love you...”
“I love you too...”
I smile softly before we share a passionate kiss with one another before Katie breaks away from me. Giving me a small wave as she heads towards the door, I reciprocate with a wave of my own as she leaves the room, allowing me to get some much needed rest.
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It’s been quite a while since I’ve had the chance to sit down for an interview with Darius. Recently due to the injury he sustained forcing him to take some time off, being replaced by my bestie, Zelda. Also, because recently I just haven’t felt up to be around people, with everything that Winter has been putting me through lately, I just haven’t been a very people person as a result.
Sitting here in my normal attire, this time with a black Machine Head T-shirt, the cameraman finishes up attaching the small microphone to my leather jacket before going back behind the camera to begin rolling. I look over to Darius, who is dressed in a light blue suit along with a white shirt, a red tie and a pair of black leather shoes, and nod to signal I’m ready to start.
“Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to this VoW.com Exclusive with me, VoW Interviewer, Darius Yates and joining me at this time is none other than the former two-time VoW Xcel Champion...Stacy Jones...”
I look into the camera and smile before giving a little wave before turning my attention back to Darius.
“Thanks for joining me Stacy, and I wish to begin with what took place at Breakthrough thirty-nine if I may...”
Crossing my right leg over my left, I sit back and relax as Darius begins the interview.
“You were in the Main Event, in a Six Person Tag Team match that saw you team up with your good friends, the VoW Twin City Champions, Tyron Bickerton and Hardcore Heath...collectively known as The Requiem...”
I nod as I lean forward, picking up the glass of water that was resting on the wooden table situated in between us and take a sip before setting it back down.
“Your opponents were the three current active members of The Orphanage, VoW World Visionary Champion, Casanova English...your ex-husband, “The Punisher” Matthew Robinson and your bitter rival, Winter Pine...”
The sheer mention of her name causes me to tense up, my fists clench and I can feel my blood beginning to bubble gently.
“The match was certainly eventful, and it all started with the appearance of Seth Iser, who wanted to desperately get his hands on English. He would proceed to chase the champion right out of the arena, giving you and your team the numbers advantage, so let’s begin with how you felt when that happened?”
“Well Darius, I respect Iser...I really do...and I can completely understand why he would want to get his hands on English. The Orphanage have a tendency to drive their fellow Visionaries to the point where all they want to do is tear them apart...”
I stroke my hands through my long black and blue hair before continuing.
“However at the time, I was pretty angry that English was no longer a part of the match because I was hoping to not only win the match, but I wanted to be the one to pick up the victory...and I wanted English to be the one to take the fall, I wanted to throw myself into the title picture, I wanted to prove to the world that I am capable of defeating the World Champion...”
“I see...okay well now let’s move onto the moment when Dathyn got involved, obviously you weren’t aware of what happened at the time as you had your hands full with Winter. But after you had discovered that Dathyn had gotten involved and took Heath out of the match with a vicious shot to the back of his head with a steel baseball bat, how did you feel about that?”
“Angry...upset...concerned. Heath is my friend, and what Dathyn did to him earlier was despicable! I kinda know what Heath is going through, his son has been kidnapped by Dathyn and I pretty much feel like my children have been kidnapped by Winter. And to add insult to injury, he takes him out with a steel bat? He better pray that Heath doesn’t get his hands on him...because trust me...Dathyn will wish he’d never been born if he does...”
“As all of this was going on, whilst you and Winter were battling it out, your ex-husband and Tyron were legal and when it looked like Tyron was going to pick up the victory, Robinson would turn things around and pick up the win for The Orphanage. Another unfortunate loss for you...so...your thoughts on that?”
Letting out an elongated sigh, I shake my head slightly because I still believe that I was responsible for our defeat. Not only that, but the fact that I am still yet to pick up my first victory in a very long time, I begin feeling rather frustrated about the whole thing.
“How do you think I feel, Darius? I’m frustrated with myself...I know that I am better than this! I’m a former two-time Xcel Champion for crying out loud! I was the first ever female champion of any kind here...I was the first Visionary to become a two-time champion! And when was the last time I actually won a match here? I can’t even remember it was so damn long ago!”
I grab hold of the glass of water and take a few large gulps of the clear liquid to calm myself down.
“If I hadn’t been so Hell bent on beating the crap out of Winter...I would have been able to break the pin Matt had on Tyron...and then maybe, the final outcome would have been different...but that didn’t happen...”
“Speaking of Winter, VoW’s Double Jeopardy Pay-Per-View event will see you and Winter battling it out one on one after the two of you signed a contract at Breakthrough that ended rather...strangely to say the least...”
“Strange? The psycho pulled a clump of my hair out of my head using her damn teeth! She’s a freakin’ nut-case!”
“And what are your thoughts on facing her at Double Jeopardy in Puerto Rico?”
Dozens of thoughts play through my mind on what I would love to do to that evil fucking bitch. Many of them would probably result in me being locked up in prison for a very long time.
“Well...first of all...it’s going to be great to wrestle in Puerto Rico for the first time ever in my career...so that’s a plus.”
I try and think of happier thoughts, such as the last time I wrestled at the Double Jeopardy Pay-Per-View, one night that I will never forget.
“And the last time I fought at Double Jeopardy, I battled Brett Carson in an Excel Rules match for the Xcel Championship. I won that match, and in doing so became a two-time Xcel Champion...that was one of the biggest nights of my life...”
Back during the days where I could actually fucking win a match. Hell, I beat Carson, Vanessa and Scott Knight to win my first Xcel title, what the Hell has happened to me that’s gotten me to the point where I’m losing to everyone I’m put into the ring with? No disrespect to them, but the likes of Carson, Vanessa and Knight weren’t exactly push-overs.
“And as far as battling Winter goes...it’s plain and simple really...I’m going to tear her damn throat out! I’ve said it time and time again, she may be inside my head...but she’ll eventually realize that she does NOT want to be there! She can try and break me mentally...but before she is able to succeed with that...I’ll break her physically!”
I sit forward in my chair, glaring at Darius.
“I will smash her pretty little jaw off the bottom of my boot! I’ll shatter her damn nose with my knee! I’ll crush her ribs with my body! Hell...I’ll just go ahead and break every single...damn bone in her body!”
Suddenly, my attention diverts to the camera. My blood is at boiling point now and you can probably see the fire burning in my eyes.
“Winter...I will never EVER forgive or forget what you have done to me and the people I love dearly! After hearing about your past from Zelda, at one point I actually felt sorry for you...I thought that maybe I could reach out to you and help you. But I know it’s a lost cause...you’re beyond help...the only cure...is to put the big bad wolf down...and I’m going to be the one to do it!”
Closing my eyes, I take a deep breath in through my nose before then slowly exhaling through my mouth, re-opening my eyes in the process.
“At Double Jeopardy, Winter...you shall suffer my Judgement! Your final penance...is coming!”
I then stand to my feet and unhook the microphone from my jacket and drop it on the table before disappearing off camera, leaving Darius alone to finish off.
The more I lose, the more frustrated I get, the more frustrated I get, the more worried I become. I’m worried that sooner or later if things don’t change for the better that I’m going to spiral down into another deep depression that will no doubt end with me either attempting or succeeding in taking my own life.
I’m worried that if things continue the way they’re going, that I could end up hurting the ones closest to my heart. I’m worried that I could lose them forever.
Of course, if I had to be brutally honest with my upcoming match, I care more about putting a stop to Winter for good. I don’t have to defeat her to do that, I just need to hurt her so bad that she stops pulling the crap that she’s been pulling.
Of course, a win would be nice though, at least then if I manage to win, I’ll be out of this rut and it will hopefully be the start of positive things to come. Who knows...