Post by Deleted on Apr 23, 2016 18:56:47 GMT -6
As much as I’ve been missing getting into the ring since Nothing Else Matters to wrestle in front of my fans, it’s probably been a good thing for me to take some time off, especially with what happened the day after the Pay-Per-View regarding my kids.
That still hurts me as much today as it hurt when it was first mentioned to me over the phone from Doctor Li. But of course, earlier today I decided to go to a special center to talk to some women who had unfortunately suffered something I’m very familiar with, miscarriage.
Hearing their stories and offering them support, it’s something I always love to do, no matter whether it’s for a woman who’s suffered a miscarriage, a man who’s suffering abuse because he wants to be a woman, a kid with cancer or whatever.
As much as I love this business because I love to wrestle and love to put on a show for the fans that pay their hard earned money to watch me. I also love it because it gives me an easy platform for me to be able to help inspire people who are suffering for whatever reason, whether it be from a medical condition, bullying or anything like that.
It makes me feel great...
Grabbing hold of the handle of my front door, I open it and enter the hallway, closing the door behind me. Looking around, the place seems rather quiet which at first I never expected. Maybe Zel took my advice and went out for a calm walk with Elena, that’s my first thought as I glance around the living room as I enter it.
“Zel?!?! You here, honey?!?!”
Placing my handbag down onto the one of my dark brown leather sofas, I decide to head upstairs and take a nice long hot bath. Heading back through into the hallway, I make my way up the stairs and as I reach the second floor, I hear a light sobbing coming from the room that Tyler and Zelda are currently staying in.
The door slightly ajar, I peer through the small crack in it and slowly open it as I see Zelda lying on her bed, her back to me and facing the small crib that is inhabited by a sleeping Elena.
I lightly knock on the door causing Zel to turn her attention towards me, her eyes red raw due to her sobbing. Her bottom lip quivering a little as she clutches onto a ball of tissue paper as she wipes her tears away.
“Zel, honey? What’s wrong?”
"St-Stacy...nothings wrong, I just...have something in my eye is all."
She sighs, leaning up slightly and tilting her head away from me.
"Something in my mind too I guess...but you don't need to be concerned about that."
Moving over towards her, I sit down on the edge of the bed close to her and place my hand on top of hers.
“I know I’m not really one to talk, especially considering my relapse the day after Nothing Else Matters. But if something is bothering you, it’s better to just let it out...so please hun, tell me what’s wrong?”
Zelda takes a deep breath as she looks up slightly at me.
"T-today is the anniversary of the worst day of my life...the day I regret more than anything in my life."
I instantly work out what she’s referring too, knowing how much she hates herself for doing what she did. Poor Zel, she was young and stupid at the time and that one mistake seems to have taken over her life more than it should.
“The day Veronica found out you cheated on her. Oh, Zel...come here...”
Scrunching her face up, preparing to burst into tears again, she nods before leaning towards me and I embrace her tightly as she lets it all out. Her crying muffled by my leather jacket, which helps lower the volume to a point it doesn’t disturb Elena.
“It’s okay...just let it out, sweetheart...”
"I j-j-just...I wish I could turn back time Stacy. I wish I could have slapped some sense into myself. I wish it would be so easy to take in all this pain. I wish so many things and yet it all still haunts me. I don't want to just let this keep eating me inside."
“I know you do, Zel...”
Seeing her like this, it just breaks my heart and I can’t help but begin to cry a little myself as I continue to hold onto my dear friend.
“We all do things we’re ashamed of and wish we could turn back time later in life. But these things happen for a reason, and if you hadn’t done what you did you would never have met Tyler. You probably wouldn’t have ended up joining VoW and meeting me, Katie, Zo, Farrah and everyone else here...you wouldn’t have Elena.”
I softly rub her back as she continues to sob away in my arms.
“I know it sucks, Zel...but just like what I need to do more often so I don’t relapse again, you have to focus more on the positives in your life. I mean, for example...just take a look at the beautiful little angel inside that crib...”
Zelda lifts her head up slightly, looking over at Elena and smiling with tears still rolling down her face.
"She...she is beautiful...I just don't want her making those same mistakes, or at least to be more honest for whatever mistakes she does make. It just kills me more recently because the more I look, the more I realize how much better your life would be had I not made that mistake, how Winter wouldn't be so hell bent on ruining your life. One smart decision when I was younger could have made so many things better for you, you could even have your kids back by now."
Oh no, missy. You are not blaming yourself for me not being able to see my kids. Taking both of her hands in mine, I look at her with a stern expression on my face.
“Zelda, look at me...”
She turns her gaze from Elena to me as I shake my head.
“You are not to blame for me not being able to see my kids, understand me? I chose to continue my wrestling career after Matt had retired so it made sense for him to look after them. It was the hardest decision I ever had to make, but I did it with the intention of making sure they had a future, a college fund and all that jazz...”
Placing my right hand on her cheek, I stroke it gently.
“But don’t you ever blame yourself for the mistakes that I have made when it comes to my children...”
"B-but Winter...she is responsible for a lot of the pain recently. I could have helped that be prevented."
Zel's tears begins flowing a bit more again as she lets her head go limp in my hand.
"My one move caused all the dominoes to fall, and for that it's hard to ever really forgive myself."
“Zel, do you really think I would be your best friend if I blamed you for anything bad that has happened regarding my kids? Do you really think that if I blamed you for any of my problems that I would do something like this...”
Closing my eyes, I then lean forward and plant a long, deep kiss on her lips.
"Mmm..."
Zelda leans away slightly from my lips, blushing as she tilts her head down.
"I...g-guess you are right...deep down I just wish I could have prevented more things that my actions played a part in causing."
Smiling, Zelda leans back in and kisses me softly on the lips.
"Though...in a good light without my mistakes I wouldn't have my best friend."
“Exactly...now...a little birdie tells me that Tyler’s away on business...so it’s just me, you and Katie...well, and Elena of course, but maybe you could get somebody to look after her one night and we could have that special girls night...”
Zelda's blushing gets brighter as she looks at me.
"W-W-We could...I have some family in New York that moved over from Minnesota a year or two back, and they've been nice with Elena when Tyler and I have brought her over to see them. I could...maybe talk with them."
“You should, maybe the experience will help make you feel better...”
"Stacy...thank you. I still feel really hurt inside and mad at myself, but having my best friend here being so kind to me makes me feel very happy to be where I am now."
“And I will always be here for you...always...”
We embrace again before Elena suddenly begins to stir and Zel picks her up out of her crib as both of us begin to play with her.
One thing you can always guarantee about a baby, they can always make any sadness you may be feeling instantly go away.
One thing you can always guarantee about a baby, they can always make any sadness you may be feeling instantly go away.
And Elena is no exception...
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So it’s the following day and it’s just Katie, Zelda and I having our special girls night that we had planned for months now. We’re all dressed in silk dressing gowns, Zelda in a red one, Katie in a pink one and I’m in a purple one.
Sitting in the lounge on the thick, fluffy cream carpet we’re all sipping away on non-alcoholic wine, because we at least wanted it to seem like we were having a proper girls night and that always involves drinking wine of course.
After finishing up watching the new Deadpool movie, which Katie and I had already seen before and it was just as hilarious as the first time we watched it. Switching the television off, I put the remote down on the floor and turn my attention to my fiancee and bestie.
“Well then girls...I think it’s time for a bit of truth...or dare...”
I seductively rub my tongue across my top lip and then wink at the both of them before the three of us burst out into laughter.
"Ooh, I'm down. Zel, you down?"
"Of course, I'm always up for some fun games with my girls."
Zelda giggles as she readjusts herself on the carpet and looks over to Katie.
"Maybe Katie should go first, you've seemed rather giggly all night after all missy."
"All righ-wait, to ask or to answer?"
"To ask of course, silly."
Katie has a look of realization before prepping herself.
"Okay, then...Stace; truth...or dare?"
I cock my head to the side, folding my arms as a smile grows on my face.
“Give me your best shot, honey...dare.”
"Hmm..."
With a smile still on her face, Katie begins to ponder. Now, it takes her a few seconds, but she spurts out this gem.
"Lick Zel Zel's forehead once. I dunno, I wanna save my best shot for later."
“Okay...”
Getting on all fours, I slowly and seductively crawl towards Zel, showing her my best ‘come to bed’ eyes before finally reaching her.
“Hey baby...”
Moving my head up, I slowly stick out my tongue and narrowly avoid touching her top lip with it, teasing her before softly licking her forehead.
"Ooh my..."
Zelda giggles a bit as she blushes at my actions.
"Very enticing with your tongue Stacy, I'll keep that in mind later. But I guess it's your turn now, as usual truth or dare goes."
Moving back to my original position, looking up to the ceiling, I pout and tap my mouth with my index finger, thinking.
“Well then, Zel Zel...truth or dare?”
"Hmm, how about so this game isn't too cut-throat, let's go truth."
I pout again, but this time, it’s more because of the fact that I was hoping for Zel to say dare but I guess, with how naughty we tend to get, she’s probably right.
“Okay then, how many times have you played with yourself when thinking about Katie and me?”
Blushing bright red, Zelda stumbles around with her answer a bit in her head before answering.
"Um...w-well I...maybe like four...teen...possibly more."
“FOURTEEN?!?! Jeez, Zel...”
"I'm very...in tune with my body when my mind starts racing. S-sorry Stace, Katie."
“Hey, don’t apologize...I just didn’t expect the answer to be so high...”
"Well I didn't lie when I said I really cherish our friendship."
Zelda giggles a little shyly as she looks at Katie.
"Katie, truth or dare?"
"Zelda, it's perfectly natural...no need to apologize. Truth, by the way."
"Well...hmm...Katie, how did you feel the first time you saw Stacy naked?"
Zelda giggles as she pokes at Katie's leg while asking this, obviously trying to tease her a bit. Katie, though thrown off, answers immediately.
"Clammy...warm...attracted...submissive...a little sweaty, and a lot flustered."
“Pretty much the same way I felt when I first saw you naked...”
Ooh, that made Katie blush. Oops!
"Aww...truth or dare, then?"
Well since these two have taken the easy road and gone with truth, I’m going to go with dare again on this one.
“Dare...you two are being boring...”
I chuckle as I say this and spot Katie giving Zelda an interesting look, I may have just opened a can of worms here.
"Hmm... I dare you to-oo-oo..."
Again, Katie thinks about her dare.
"For...let's say thirty seconds, I dare you to make Zelda owe me five kisses. Give her a tongue if you want."
“You want me to make Zelda owe you five kisses? Well, technically she already does owe you about that much since we’ve made out about that many times...”
Laughing, I give Zelda a cheeky wink.
“Okay then, Zel Zel...make out with Katie five times and you have to use tongue...”
"Oh, my."
Katie says before licking her upper lips.
"Hmm...I guess Katie deserves a little bit for herself."
Zelda giggles as she scoots over to Katie, moving her hand across Katie's body and up to her face to move over her hair. Smiling, she leans in slowly until her lips touch Katie's, locking them together and deeply kissing her. Her tongue can be seen bouncing inside Katie's mouth, when the lips separate for a slight moment both tongues of the girls are wrapped together tightly. Several deep kisses, lip biting, and tongue twisting later, Zelda leans away from Katie and blushes bright red, enough to where she is almost matching color with her gown.
"W-wow...that may have been a few more than five."
Zelda giggles as she lays her hand on top of Katie's, smiling as she looks at her then back to me.
"Just a...a few more."
I can see it in her brown eyes, Katie's flustered. Her hand movements are quick, she can't keep eye contact with either of us...wait, is she okay?
“Katie, honey? Are you okay? If this getting too much...we can stop...”
"I...I..."
I can hear the nervousness in her usually calm and collected voice.
"I...wasn't expec...expecting all that..."
"It...just kind of came out that way...s-sorry if I gave too much Katie."
Zel wraps her arms around Katie in a hug, obviously a bit nervous in her speech as well.
"It...it's f-f-fine...Zel."
Katie takes a deep breath, trying to calm herself down.
“Well, it’s my turn now...if you guys still want to continue?”
"I'm still good to go...Katie might just need a second."
Zelda giggles as she kisses Katie on the cheek before scooting away to her original spot. Biting her lower lip, and sporadically blinking, Katie looks back at me and slowly nods. For her sake, I hope she's telling the truth.
“Well since I asked Zel already, Katie...truth or dare?”
"Truth...please."
Immediately, Katie said that and I’m honestly not surprised by it considering the circumstances.
“Okay...”
Thinking for a moment, I want to try and ask her a question that isn’t too forward.
“When did you first realize you were a lesbian? Or at least, liked women sexually?”
"Didn't you and I go over that last ye..."
Katie looks over to Zel, knowing she hasn't heard about why Katie was a lesbian.
"Oh, yeah...this may sound dumb, but here goes. My freshman year, I just knew that I was straight. I had a boyfriend on the football team and we were the envy of the freshman class. Then, when I figured out that he had this massive ego on him, that was around the same time he would suggest we go back to his place and do...that. I said no, and he... went...off. I had a future to look after, and I guess he didn't, so he..."
Katie clears her throat and take a deep breath.
"He didn't hit me, but his words might as well have. It was the worst imaginable string of words I had ever heard at the time. He went right off, and we decided not to speak to each other again. Then, I had no idea what I wanted after that. Track was my escape of sorts, that and watching my high school's band. In the band while still dating that guy from earlier, there was this one skinny girl who had dyed jet black hair. She was a freshman, just like I was. No idea where she is now, but I remember going home in a hurry the day I saw her and when I got to my room...I, er...did the thing."
Katie moves her finger around in the shape of a circle, indicating one thing.
"So you had a bit of a deep thing for the band girl, aww."
Zelda smiles as she pokes at Katie's leg again.
"But I guess I can understand how an experience with that guy you were with really ruined men in general for you. Definitely no secret the majority of guys can be really misogynistic bastards."
"Oh, you're not kidding."
“Yeah, I know all too well about men being bastards. But I was already bi-sexual before I got into any major relationships, I was just afraid to reveal that side of me to the wrestling world. As well as also being afraid to reveal my true self in terms of looks...”
Zelda nods and shrugs.
"I learned from my experiences not every guy can be a Tyler, but even a good bit of girls can be bad eggs too. I honestly preferred girls a lot more over guys though, dated more of them too, but you sometimes find that one person that you just can't let go. I got a lucky break with my guy, not something a lot of people get to say."
"You two ever been to Tennessee? It's quite the conservative state, so much so that the Bible is the states official book...no one knew of my homosexuality until I was already at VoW for a bit."
"Sweetie, I moved to Alabama after being with Tyler for a little while, I certainly understand the struggle lesbians and bi-sexual people go through around that area and in a lot of other places in this country."
“I’m just glad that gay marriage has finally been legalized nationwide in America. But, going back to what we were saying earlier...I’ve been through bad relationships, as we all have...and I’ve made mistakes in my past that I wish I hadn’t...but what matters is now and I have never ever been more sure in my entire life until now, that I am with the person who I will stay with forever...”
Placing my hand onto Katie’s, we share a moment staring into each other’s eyes and smiling before I quickly glance over to Zel as well who has a smile on her face too. She nods, knowing that part of what I said was also directed towards her, to help make her feel better about what happened the other day.
“But anyway, back to the game...Katie, you’re up...”
"Gotcha...Zelda. Truth...or dare?"
"Let's go dare, give me your best shot Katie."
"Ooh, another dare...uh...I'm running out of ideas here. How about...you...uh..."
Katie frowns a bit, because she really must not be able to think of anything she'd want Zel Zel to do.
"Come on Katie bug, I know there is something you have in mind for me. Let me have it!"
"Uh...I don't know. I guess you could get a bit of payback and lick Stacy's forehead..."
Katie shrugs with the most confused look about her.
Zelda smiles a bit and crawls over to me, lightly blowing against my neck and up to my forehead before sticking her tongue out and gently licking across it. I feel myself tense up as her tongue touches me.
"Mmm..."
Zelda lets out that little moan as she finishes the licking, then she wipes her finger over my forehead and sticks it into my mouth before winking.
"I still think you do it a bit better, but I gave it a good try at least."
I begin to get a bit flustered and fan myself down with my right hand.
“Phew, is it getting hot in here or what?”
Unfastening the cord on my gown, I pull it off revealing the sexy lingerie I’m wearing underneath. The very outfit I bought when out with Zel before Elena decided to come along.
"Oh...oh, my."
"Oh my indeed, it's been a while sexy."
Zelda giggles as she pulls on her gown cord too, opening it and revealing her lingerie that really borders see-through in some places.
"Much better, really helps cool things down. You wait one moment though Katie, because...Stacy, truth or dare?"
“Dare...”
I answer so quickly, it almost catches Zel and Katie off guard. I’m feeling so hot right now, I wanna do something really naughty and move things over to the bedroom soon.
"I was hoping you would choose that one. Stacy, I dare you to help me spark this fire."
Zelda scoots back towards Katie, grabbing tightly onto her gown and kissing against her neck while her breath becomes heavy.
"Oh, OH! Zel, I'm no-I'm-I-I don-de-I-ahh...ooh..."
Crawling over towards them, I take hold of the cord of Katie’s gown and unfasten it, slowly taking it off revealing the outfit that I bought for her. I was going to look over to Zel’s reaction to it as this is first time she will have seen it but I can’t help myself and begin to kiss her on the other side of her neck. Katie's eyes close and her body tenses right up. I can practically taste the goosebumps forming all over her.
"I've been waiting to get a hold of you for a long time Katie, so so long."
Zelda smiles as she fully pulls off her own gown and throws it to the floor, lifting off to look over Katie's outfit and admire it before leaning down again and kissing softly against Katie's stomach. She reaches over and rubs against my leg, my skin tingling as she pulls against the elastic of my waistband and snaps it back onto me.
“Ooo Zel Zel...kinky...”
Slowly stroking her leg with my right hand, I caress my other hand up the back of Katie before reaching her bra as I begin to unfasten it.
“What’s say we take this to the bedroom?”
"Thaaaaaaaah-t's fine with me-OH!"
"Hmm, I think..."
Zelda grins as she pulls down on Katie's bra straps and kisses the upper part of her breasts as Katie tries to keep herself covered up in...certain places.
"That might be a good idea. I'm loving these outfits, but I've been needing to strip out of these for a while now, and I'm definitely not waiting anymore."
Hopping up to her feet, Zelda walks away from both of us and unhooks her own bra, wasting little time to remove it and throws it to the side with her back facing us, certainly waiting to give Katie and I our present in the bedroom and not reveal things too soon as she also covers herself with her hands.
"Come on ladies, it's playtime."
Both Katie and I look over to one another and smile before we get to our feet and take each other’s hands before making our way towards Zel. The three of us then disappear upstairs towards the bedroom for a night of fun, lust, excitement, ecstasy...whatever you wanna call it.
This has been something that I have fantasized about for a very long time and I honestly never thought it would actually become a reality. I’m not afraid about how things will go, I’m not worried it may hurt my relationship with Katie, nor am I afraid that it will ruin my friendship with Zelda.
If anything, this experience will bring us closer together, our bond will become closer and that can only be a good thing.
Of course, the most important thing to come from this is that hopefully it’ll help me with my mental stability, that’s what I’m really hoping for.
