Post by Deleted on Jun 23, 2016 18:52:42 GMT -6
Oh boy. If I thought I was nervous about stepping inside a Steel Cage at VoW’s biggest Pay-Per-View against the woman who has made my life a living Hell over these past few months, then I’m surprised I haven’t fucking fainted yet over what I’m about to do right now.
Even with both Zelda and Jami here with me for support, I still don’t know if I’m ready to do this. I haven’t seen Katie since Breakthrough 46 where all of this mess started, when that witch manipulated both Katie and Zel into thinking that I was planning to run away with Tyler, leaving both of them high and dry.
That moment will never leave my mind, the moment they both struck me, ending everything between us. And after Jami helped clear my name, I thought everything would be back to how they used to be, but that wasn’t to be.
Making my way down the street, dressed in a pair of a black sneakers, a pair of plain black leggings, a black sports bra, a black leather jacket and a plain black woollen hat, I look over to Zel who is dressed in a pair of white sneakers, a pair of plain black leggings, a plain red sports bra and a light brown leather jacket, and she gives me a reassuring smile.
I then turn to Jami, who is dressed similarly to me, with a pair of black sneakers, a pair of plain black leggings along with a dark green sports bra and she too gives me a reassuring smile as we enter through the front door of the Anytime Fitness Gym.
The moment we enter, the putrid smell of sweat penetrates my nostrils which temporarily distracts me and calm my nerves, but the moment I see her, those nerves come flooding back. She still looks like the sweet little angel I always knew she was, and instantly my heart is filled with pain.
“I-I c-can’t do this guys...I-I can’t...”
I try to turn around, however both Zel and Jami are adamant that I do this, as much as I know that I need to do this for my own good, I just don’t feel like I can right now.
"Look, you know I've been with every woman in this get-together, including you, Selina."
Jami says, her arms folding up as her weight shifted to one side. Damn, her confidence was sexy enough, but like this...
"If I thought for five seconds either of the girls were going to have a problem with you, I'd have said this was a bad idea. Right now, everyone needs this as closure...everyone."
She turns to Zelda, looking for backup.
"She isn't wrong Stace. Just keep calm and focus, if I know Claire, she has been wanting and waiting for the chance to speak to you for a while. And Katie most likely does not feel good with your last true conversation with her when this was all revealed being over a phone call. Also, I can only be the in between party for so long, at some point you girls needed to get together and really hash out any emotional issues pertaining to this so we can all truly move on."
"Exactly, Jennifer."
For some reason, Jami was the only one that called Zelda by her real name. I guess that was her 'nickname’ for her.
"This is gonna have to happen sooner or later. We might as well get it out of the way now."
Funny, for someone so energetic, she seemed the calm one at the moment. Taking a long deep breath in through my nose, closing my eyes I slowly exhale through my mouth, nodding slowly and then opening my eyes back up.
“You’re right, guys...here goes...”
I slowly walk up towards both Katie and Claire, both of them doing some light weight lifting when suddenly they both spot me, Zel and Jami getting closer. Stopping in front of them, Katie and Claire set down the weights and both Katie and I stare into one another’s eyes for what seems like an eternity, I don’t know whether it’s appropriate or not to give her a hug, as much as I would love to do so as Katie gives me a light nod.
"So...the day's finally here, isn't it?"
Shrugging my shoulders, I manage to muster up a small smile.
“H-Had to happen someday, it’s great to see you again K-Katie...”
I then turn my attention to Claire, who flashes me a small smile of her own.
“A-And you must be Claire? It’s nice to finally m-meet you...”
My voice keeps breaking, God damn it why is this so fucking hard, I feel like I’m so close to just breaking down and making myself look like a fool in front of everyone.
Claire looks between the two of us having realized things would be like this, but to this level? Kind of makes her own anxiety about this meeting seem pale by comparison. Yeah, while meeting me was at the high end of her list it was one of those things she kept looking for excuses to put off.
Not easy being the new beau especially when the breakup between the others was still fresh. Still, it would only make matters far worse if she caved in under her own pressure so she keeps that smile of hers going.
"Nice to finally meet you too."
She says in a cheery voice, not overly cheerful as if stating there were something wrong here. Because there isn't. Just enough to keep things in the positive. She looks back at Katie and thinks about giving her shoulder a reassuring squeeze, but it might not be wise in front of me. At least not until we've settled our own accounts. But speaking of settling accounts...
"I really hope you don't mind my dating Katie."
Saying it now makes it seem rather silly to the woman as she tends to an itch on her forehead and smiles. The past few weeks this has been the biggest worry in her mind, aside from being a sex store operator and dating a champion class athlete. But, it's like Kat said, move beyond and just love Katie.
"Actually..."
Her tone has changed. It's almost become serious as it's no longer the sex store owner talking to the wrestler, but Claire talking to me.
"I-I really don't care if it upsets you. I love Katie."
Claire looks back at her girlfriend knowing she could easily be punched out by any of us women. Yet, she gives her a nod and looks back at me.
"Look, I don't mean to be a bitch when I say that, I know you still have feelings and...and I know you're not the one at fault, NEITHER of you are at fault. But..."
Claire pauses, her mouth partly open as her eyes finally look away from me. Though just for a moment as they're right back focused on me again.
"I don't want to let her go."
Nodding, I completely understand where she’s coming from. I’m glad she was straight up with me and honest. I respect her for that.
“C-Claire, as much as it pains me to k-know that things between Katie and I will n-never be the same again. I’m glad t-that she’s managed to find someone w-who is very clearly h-head over heels in love with h-her.”
A single tear slowly rolls down my cheek which I quickly wipe away.
“I-I’ve come to terms with t-the fact w-we’re not getting back together, so I-I’m not here to try and t-take her away from you, so you need not w-worry about that. And I r-respect how up front and clear y-you are about your feelings, so please a-allow me to do the same...”
Glancing over to Katie for a moment, I lock eyes with Claire.
“Y-You break her h-heart? I’ll break your face!”
"Whoa, whoa, whoa!"
Jami suddenly steps up in between us, her eyes stern and....blue?
I could have sworn they were hazel...
"Look, none of you have been like this in the talks leading up to this moment, and let's not forget, this wasn't even anyone in this room's fault to begin with. The lot of you wouldn't even be talking to each other right now had it not been for my family uncovering that bitch Pine's deceptive tactics."
Jami looks to all three of us and shakes her head.
"Look, I know we all are tense about tomorrow, and even though I'm not part of VoW, I'm still here supporting each and every one of you. I love all of you, and I get you all are still letting nerves get to you, but Jesus wept, this is ridiculous! Regardless of what happened before, we're all in this together. There's no reason for any of us to get pissed."
She turns to me.
"Trust me, Stacy, these two are crazy about each other. Claire would never dare hurt Katie...and you know I wouldn't either, yet you've never made a threat to me like that."
Now she turns to Claire.
"And Stacy already feels crap about this whole situation as it is. The last thing she needs is you stepping up into alpha bitch mode for no reason."
Stepping back for a moment, she folds her arms.
"We don't...have...to fight. I've dealt with enough fighting this week in my own life without seeing my girlfriends go at it like this. So this is our ground zero point."
She holds out her arms, looking to all four of us.
"Group hug? For me? And for each other?”
“I-I’m sorry, Claire...J-Jami...all of you. She’s right, what happened wasn’t any of our faults and l-life happens and we’ve just g-gotta move on and accept it.”
Wrapping one of my arms around Jami, I look around to the rest of the girls and stretch out my other arm, hoping everyone else will join in with the group hug. Claire smiles feeling a bit tentative over what she's said but steps in to join along the hug.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to sound so standoffish. I know you aren't here to take Katie away, and I don't wanna fight. I just wanted to let you know she's in good hands."
And with that, Katie and Zelda also join in with the hug and after a few moments, we all break away and I look over to Claire.
“M-Mind if I borrow Katie for a bit?”
Shaking her head and smiling, Katie and I make our way over to the other side of the gym whilst Claire, Jami and Zel converse with one another.
"I would have said something, I didn't expect Claire to get like that...I'm sorry."
“It’s fine, Katie. It proves how much she loves you and I can’t have any problems with that. I shouldn’t have threatened to break her face, so for that...I’m sorry too.”
She looks me dead in the eyes.
"It's fine, Stace. Natural reaction to a sudden lack of nature."
“I’m just happy to see that you’re happy. You will always mean the world to me and knowing that you’re with someone who loves you as much as Claire does is good enough for me. I hope you both have a lovely life together, full of happiness. And, I still want to remain a big part of your life still, as a friend...however I understand if you don’t want that.”
A light, quick snort from the ex-fiancé.
"Why would I not want that? You were the first friend I ever made in wrestling, we were a couple for nearly a year. You trained me, you taught me almost everything I know about wrestling. Even if I never wanted to see you again, which obviously I do...like, a lot...but even if I never saw you again or wanted to, I'd never forget you."
In a slight twist, Katie hugs me around the shoulders.
"Please, I ask of you, be a big part of my life. I can't lose my first ever wrestling friend, Stacy."
“I’m so glad to hear you say that Katie...you can guarantee that I will never be out of your life. We’ll be friends forever...”
Sharing a proper hug with one another this time, we head back over to Zel, Jami and Claire to proceed with our workout.
It’s great to finally have closure on this whole thing now with Katie. Do I feel ready to move on yet? Not quite. But this was a big step that I needed to take in order to prevent myself from spiralling into another serious depression episode.
At least one of us has moved on and is happy, and I’m glad it’s Katie...