Post by Ian Windermear on Jan 30, 2015 16:26:18 GMT -6
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Dr. Glau: Ian, can you tell me why you got into wrestling?
Ian was laying down on the couch while Dr. Stacy Glau was sitting in a chair with her legs crossed and her notepad in her lap and a black pin tapping on the notepad. Ian closed his eyes and sighed he didn’t want to be here but in a way he needed it. He needed to talk to someone and try and get all of his ideas out. He needed to be heard, talking to yourself you weren’t being hear you were just going back to the same rut that you were in before.
Ian Windermear: I…ummm...I’m not sure if that is going to help anything.
Dr. Glau: Ian, I want to know why you got into wrestling. It would help me understand the path you took. Also it might lead me to see why you were into Nikki. Any little bit helps.
Ian was reluctant. He didn’t want to go into the story but here he was. He had to get everything out. He needed help and this was his out even though he really didn’t want it.
Ian Windermear: Well it started out that I loved watching it on TV. I always wanted to be a part of it and everything. My parents didn’t approve my mom was sick so I stayed home with her most of the time because my dad was always at work. I had to be the man of the house and that is why I was able to get to my dream. Sadly, my mom died and I needed something to do so I went to wresting funded my own way. Now first off my dad was a big man in a big company so I we grew up with a lot of money and all of that so that was another reason my dad thought wrestling was below me.
Dr. Glau nodded her head and prodded her on with her hands for him to continue.
Ian Windermear: But I wanted to do it so I did. He was mad of course but he was still always at work and finally I think that is what killed him. He tried to hide the pain by going to work and all of that but the loss of my mom hit him. Anyways, all of the sudden I was left all of this money so I continued my wrestling and all of that and with the money I bought a school a couple years ago and trained people because I wanted to give back and all of that you know. But wrestling has always been my love and it has always been something that I have wanted to do. I might not be the best at it but I still have passion for it. I left a little bit ago but I wanted to get back into it after I trained more people.
Ian sighed and without Dr. Glau motioning him to continue he kept going and he started to feel a little bit better. Although it wasn’t the issue that he had wanted to talk about today. But nonetheless he was here so he had to keep going.
Ian Windermear: I just want to be happy and wrestling was supposed to my happy place but now with Nikki and everything it hasn’t been. I just keep thinking about her and I wonder if I should go on with wrestling or if I should leave.
Dr. Glau nodded her head and looked down at her watch. She closed her notepad and stuck the pen into her hair.
Dr Glau: Well time is up. But next time I want to have you expand if you want to leave or not. That sounds like a good jumping off point. Ian, you are making progress. After the first time we talked I didn’t think you’d be back. So this is good.
Dr. Glau and Ian got up at the same time and she stuck her hand out and he took it. He nodded his head and left, Ian was ready to move on from this and find himself again. It was a long ride back to his apartment he knew what he needed to do he needed to pack and get ready to head off to Nebraska. He had a big match at Double Jeopardy. He was going after a title. Maybe that was what he needed to get back into the love of wrestling. He was at his apartment packing he looked at the stuff in his bag and sighed. He walked around the apartment and he sat at his favorite chair. He looked at the camera and closed his eyes.
Ian Windermear: Is this what I need?
A rhetorical question and Ian knew it. He just needed to get it out he took a deep breath and put his hands over his head and looked up at the ceiling.
Ian Windermear At Double Jeopardy I have a shot at something. I have a shot to change my thoughts around to finally look in the mirror and smile at what I have been doing. I want to finally see if this is what I am cut out to do. I have always wanted to do it but now I am questioning myself. This business has taken a lot from me it has taken a fiancé and a child from me. I look at myself in the mirror and I say to myself you really chose this over what you could have had. Was it a mistake?
Ian shook his head at the new rhetorical question. He slowly got up from the chair and started to walk around the apartment.
Ian Windermear: This is huge for me if I beat Ziu Zhong I become a champion and I can finally see that this business might actually mean something to me. If I lose it will be another notch on the belt of losing. I just can’t take that anymore the past few matches here in VoW I haven’t been myself. I have had a lot going on in my head and that is why I have been going to Dr. Glau and trying to talk things out and trying to fix everything. I think it is working but I still don’t want to be there but I need to be there. I need to find out what is going on in my head. It isn’t easy for someone like me who has money to try and admit that he has a problem. I should be above everything that has been going on with me. I should be walking with my held high not down low looking at everyones shoes. I should be on top of the world with a smile on my face. I should be embracing what I am and that is the Lone Wolf. I have always been that and I need to become that again. I need to take on the world by myself. I need to do what I have done before and that is not care what people thought or said about me. That is one key thing that has happened to me and I haven’t shared that with anyone. I have been trying to worry about what people think and it has hurt me. I need to walk down to that ring and do what I love and what I have passion for and that is wrestle my ass off. To get my hand raised and to smile at a victory that I have earned.
Ziu Zhong is not going to be an easy out. He has taken on the best of VoW and he has walked out the winner. In his second match in this company he became the number one contender for the Zero Gravity Title that he now holds. I can’t stand here and talk down about him and say that he hasn’t done anything here. Because he has and hell being a champion is a huge task to undertake. He knows what it takes to win, and that is scary. That means everything is on the table he is going to fight to his last breath and I have to be prepared for that. One thing that I have noticed about him though is that he doesn’t have the experience I have. That is one thing that I have on most of this roster although it hasn’t seemed to work right now in my favor but sooner or later I will take that and use it. I want to use it against Ziu Zhong I want to fight to win that title and win it based on experience. But I know that he is going to fight hard to keep the title that he just really won. He doesn’t want to let it go and I can’t blame him for that. He doesn’t want to be a flash in the pan that wins a title and then losses it as soon as he puts it on the line.
I have watched Ziu and he is good in that ring but he has a problem. He loves the camera a little too much. I am not that much into selfies.
Ian shook his head as he walked around the room a little bit more. He finally stops and goes back to his chair and sits down.
Ian Windermear: Ziu, has a little bit of a problem with that. When people are down he takes pictures instead of taking advantage of the situation. If he does that against me a man that knows a little bit about stuff in that ring he is going to be sorry. It is simple if you have me down you have to take advantage of it. You can’t have me get back up and fight back. I will not let someone that takes pictures and posts them on Instagram or Facebook trying and take advantage of me after that. As soon as he does that and I can sense that he does it will light a fire underneath me and I will get back up and I will beat him down for it. To me that is a little cocky to me that is a little immature and maybe after a couple more years in that ring he will figure it out. But until then he will keep on taking pictures and sooner or later he is going to take one to many and he is going to cost himself a match.
Ziu is fast and he is good in the air and he is going to use those to try and get me off of my game. I am not fast anymore this knee doesn’t allow it.
Ian slapped his left knee and closed his eyes.
Ian Windermear: Ziu is going to test me and I am going to test him back. This will be a good match because I want it to be. I want to show VoW that after a couple losses I can bounce back. They put a lot of faith in me for this match and I cannot let them down.
I respect Ziu because after my match with Cass the Orphanage came out which we knew would happen. Everyone could see it because the need to ride and die together. Ziu didn’t have to come out but he did. He showed that he has heart and that he will try and help people that need it. I could have been laying in that ring and no one helping me and just becoming a whipping boy for Cass and his cast of losers. Ziu helped me and that is why I am looking forward to this match. He is going to bring his best and I am going to bring my best and we are going to meet in that ring together and only one is going to walk out the winner. I am going to try my damndest to win. I want the Zero Gravity Title. Like I said I need something to change my focus in this world and maybe winning a title will fix that. If I lose I guess it is back to the drawing board again. Either way though I am going to leave everything out in the ring I just hope Ziu does as well. But in the end I hope I am the one taking a selfie with the title.
Ian got up and walked into the bedroom where he grabbed his bag. He nodded, he was ready for this match he was ready to be a champion. It was his time he didn’t want to be passed by again. The Lone Wolf was on his way to the top he just needed to beat the Selfie King.
Dr. Glau: Ian, can you tell me why you got into wrestling?
Ian was laying down on the couch while Dr. Stacy Glau was sitting in a chair with her legs crossed and her notepad in her lap and a black pin tapping on the notepad. Ian closed his eyes and sighed he didn’t want to be here but in a way he needed it. He needed to talk to someone and try and get all of his ideas out. He needed to be heard, talking to yourself you weren’t being hear you were just going back to the same rut that you were in before.
Ian Windermear: I…ummm...I’m not sure if that is going to help anything.
Dr. Glau: Ian, I want to know why you got into wrestling. It would help me understand the path you took. Also it might lead me to see why you were into Nikki. Any little bit helps.
Ian was reluctant. He didn’t want to go into the story but here he was. He had to get everything out. He needed help and this was his out even though he really didn’t want it.
Ian Windermear: Well it started out that I loved watching it on TV. I always wanted to be a part of it and everything. My parents didn’t approve my mom was sick so I stayed home with her most of the time because my dad was always at work. I had to be the man of the house and that is why I was able to get to my dream. Sadly, my mom died and I needed something to do so I went to wresting funded my own way. Now first off my dad was a big man in a big company so I we grew up with a lot of money and all of that so that was another reason my dad thought wrestling was below me.
Dr. Glau nodded her head and prodded her on with her hands for him to continue.
Ian Windermear: But I wanted to do it so I did. He was mad of course but he was still always at work and finally I think that is what killed him. He tried to hide the pain by going to work and all of that but the loss of my mom hit him. Anyways, all of the sudden I was left all of this money so I continued my wrestling and all of that and with the money I bought a school a couple years ago and trained people because I wanted to give back and all of that you know. But wrestling has always been my love and it has always been something that I have wanted to do. I might not be the best at it but I still have passion for it. I left a little bit ago but I wanted to get back into it after I trained more people.
Ian sighed and without Dr. Glau motioning him to continue he kept going and he started to feel a little bit better. Although it wasn’t the issue that he had wanted to talk about today. But nonetheless he was here so he had to keep going.
Ian Windermear: I just want to be happy and wrestling was supposed to my happy place but now with Nikki and everything it hasn’t been. I just keep thinking about her and I wonder if I should go on with wrestling or if I should leave.
Dr. Glau nodded her head and looked down at her watch. She closed her notepad and stuck the pen into her hair.
Dr Glau: Well time is up. But next time I want to have you expand if you want to leave or not. That sounds like a good jumping off point. Ian, you are making progress. After the first time we talked I didn’t think you’d be back. So this is good.
Dr. Glau and Ian got up at the same time and she stuck her hand out and he took it. He nodded his head and left, Ian was ready to move on from this and find himself again. It was a long ride back to his apartment he knew what he needed to do he needed to pack and get ready to head off to Nebraska. He had a big match at Double Jeopardy. He was going after a title. Maybe that was what he needed to get back into the love of wrestling. He was at his apartment packing he looked at the stuff in his bag and sighed. He walked around the apartment and he sat at his favorite chair. He looked at the camera and closed his eyes.
Ian Windermear: Is this what I need?
A rhetorical question and Ian knew it. He just needed to get it out he took a deep breath and put his hands over his head and looked up at the ceiling.
Ian Windermear At Double Jeopardy I have a shot at something. I have a shot to change my thoughts around to finally look in the mirror and smile at what I have been doing. I want to finally see if this is what I am cut out to do. I have always wanted to do it but now I am questioning myself. This business has taken a lot from me it has taken a fiancé and a child from me. I look at myself in the mirror and I say to myself you really chose this over what you could have had. Was it a mistake?
Ian shook his head at the new rhetorical question. He slowly got up from the chair and started to walk around the apartment.
Ian Windermear: This is huge for me if I beat Ziu Zhong I become a champion and I can finally see that this business might actually mean something to me. If I lose it will be another notch on the belt of losing. I just can’t take that anymore the past few matches here in VoW I haven’t been myself. I have had a lot going on in my head and that is why I have been going to Dr. Glau and trying to talk things out and trying to fix everything. I think it is working but I still don’t want to be there but I need to be there. I need to find out what is going on in my head. It isn’t easy for someone like me who has money to try and admit that he has a problem. I should be above everything that has been going on with me. I should be walking with my held high not down low looking at everyones shoes. I should be on top of the world with a smile on my face. I should be embracing what I am and that is the Lone Wolf. I have always been that and I need to become that again. I need to take on the world by myself. I need to do what I have done before and that is not care what people thought or said about me. That is one key thing that has happened to me and I haven’t shared that with anyone. I have been trying to worry about what people think and it has hurt me. I need to walk down to that ring and do what I love and what I have passion for and that is wrestle my ass off. To get my hand raised and to smile at a victory that I have earned.
Ziu Zhong is not going to be an easy out. He has taken on the best of VoW and he has walked out the winner. In his second match in this company he became the number one contender for the Zero Gravity Title that he now holds. I can’t stand here and talk down about him and say that he hasn’t done anything here. Because he has and hell being a champion is a huge task to undertake. He knows what it takes to win, and that is scary. That means everything is on the table he is going to fight to his last breath and I have to be prepared for that. One thing that I have noticed about him though is that he doesn’t have the experience I have. That is one thing that I have on most of this roster although it hasn’t seemed to work right now in my favor but sooner or later I will take that and use it. I want to use it against Ziu Zhong I want to fight to win that title and win it based on experience. But I know that he is going to fight hard to keep the title that he just really won. He doesn’t want to let it go and I can’t blame him for that. He doesn’t want to be a flash in the pan that wins a title and then losses it as soon as he puts it on the line.
I have watched Ziu and he is good in that ring but he has a problem. He loves the camera a little too much. I am not that much into selfies.
Ian shook his head as he walked around the room a little bit more. He finally stops and goes back to his chair and sits down.
Ian Windermear: Ziu, has a little bit of a problem with that. When people are down he takes pictures instead of taking advantage of the situation. If he does that against me a man that knows a little bit about stuff in that ring he is going to be sorry. It is simple if you have me down you have to take advantage of it. You can’t have me get back up and fight back. I will not let someone that takes pictures and posts them on Instagram or Facebook trying and take advantage of me after that. As soon as he does that and I can sense that he does it will light a fire underneath me and I will get back up and I will beat him down for it. To me that is a little cocky to me that is a little immature and maybe after a couple more years in that ring he will figure it out. But until then he will keep on taking pictures and sooner or later he is going to take one to many and he is going to cost himself a match.
Ziu is fast and he is good in the air and he is going to use those to try and get me off of my game. I am not fast anymore this knee doesn’t allow it.
Ian slapped his left knee and closed his eyes.
Ian Windermear: Ziu is going to test me and I am going to test him back. This will be a good match because I want it to be. I want to show VoW that after a couple losses I can bounce back. They put a lot of faith in me for this match and I cannot let them down.
I respect Ziu because after my match with Cass the Orphanage came out which we knew would happen. Everyone could see it because the need to ride and die together. Ziu didn’t have to come out but he did. He showed that he has heart and that he will try and help people that need it. I could have been laying in that ring and no one helping me and just becoming a whipping boy for Cass and his cast of losers. Ziu helped me and that is why I am looking forward to this match. He is going to bring his best and I am going to bring my best and we are going to meet in that ring together and only one is going to walk out the winner. I am going to try my damndest to win. I want the Zero Gravity Title. Like I said I need something to change my focus in this world and maybe winning a title will fix that. If I lose I guess it is back to the drawing board again. Either way though I am going to leave everything out in the ring I just hope Ziu does as well. But in the end I hope I am the one taking a selfie with the title.
Ian got up and walked into the bedroom where he grabbed his bag. He nodded, he was ready for this match he was ready to be a champion. It was his time he didn’t want to be passed by again. The Lone Wolf was on his way to the top he just needed to beat the Selfie King.